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life - perfect kiss

It’s so pretty 

the middle of May under the sun 

it smells like the first youthful kisses

do you see how they’re begging on my skin?

 I carve your initials in the trees

my name is included In how much I repeat the sounds

the sounds I fall in love with 

and make me cry

resonant on tearful eyes 

i wrote journals ab...

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life - I wish we didn't have to be apart

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life - untitled seven

a constellation

mapped over your glistening body

And in the innumerable details of your eyes

they blossom in the sunlight

and of warm spring movement you remind me of the deepest parts of my veins 

that have been there since the beginning 

And yet somehow the first time hearing the sound 

in perfect harmony 

on a warm spring da...

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life - chasing

it’s lit on the sidewalk like the first room you sleep in

when you don’t yet know what to say In the night 

still the lunar moments on your skin shine so bright 

they shine so bright

outside chasing orange fireflies 

chasing the sound on your lips

chasing something pulsing against my chest

and it sounds like yours

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life - we could run away

as watching two of something elope along their paths

as watching it curve around hidden spaces 

of never before seen felt 

as watching meaning coalesce into new words we utter softly under our beating eyes 

as floating in impulse carrying us towards somewhere we’ve never been

as soft wounds open on our legs and we remind ourselves of our motionless...

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life - untitled five

I hope you feel the weight in my hands as I hold yours 

don’t worry , I’ll carry it too

just be there with me

just watch me

watch the words spill from my eyes

watch the years in the sound

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life - days in the past

There’s a pile of pages 

days in the past

it’s so heavy it pulls me towards the sky 

it’s soft if you can see me cry

It’s soft if you watch me 

watch how it makes me feel

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life - untitled six

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life - untitled eight

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life - untitled three

such a perfect part of watching the rain softly fall on spring flowers

is never thinking once that loving arms could let go

i never could have thought 

home became your arms 

you still make it right

And again

This always happens

home is in your arms

i want to go home

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life - an exchanging of soft gestures

soft body

Warm color

intentions coalescing into a single moment

only slightly asymmetrical

reminds me of nature

embodied of you

An exchanging of soft gestures

hugged like the gentle late spring memory

we cross paths entwined towards the stars 

I write fire on the walls

fire as a metaphor

decorated space 

decorated...

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life - i know you're sweet

i might not be able to get away with the sample at the beginning for uploading it to things like spotify, does anyone know how to "clear" a sample? i don't know how any of that works.

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you lash

i cry

you hurt

I still try to hold

i want to hold everything 

i want to hold you 

they reach so deep and i hope they see th...

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Trhä - tu◊ën ya êjaΩën da (nightfall at the lilly pond)

UPDATE: fixed the mix a bit

Friday, 18 August 2017 at 17:18 i recorded the clean intro (and technically the first distorted riff, but that was rerecorded later) because my idea with this song was to record all the drums first and then add the guitars later so that it didn't need a click track , so you'll notice the drums sound the same as "on an april night" because it was recorded at th...

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Barbelith

Overdue news… since living in Baltimore I officially joined the band “Barbelith”, an atmoblack band that was active from about 2011-2015, revived recently with myself as a contributing composer. We’re performing alongside the upcoming sadness shows. The older songs we play have a reimagined second guitar part now that I’m joined and hopefully we get to rerecord those songs, in additio...

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Trhä - tu EnΩëtonëg'◊ëgë§aΩan awftáclë£ ëf jedëra nu gjërieë¶tan dam jecanctanna'we lëvat lenhamë

i recorded all the guitars and synths in the first half of 2024
you might notice the w in haΩaj which was never there before, before i was typing an "º" because i didn't think i liked the look of the letter W but im fine with it now and it's more practical to use. the title means

"the distant ancient EnΩëtonëg landscape adorned with a secret path towards elusive perection"

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Trhä remaster

this is long overdue but i remastered this album https://trha.bandcamp.com/album/en-cunna-ed-no-sa-qud

overtime i'm more and more unhappy with how objectively bad the mixing is in my music and i think that it keeps the majority of people from being able to appreciate the songs. it doesnt necesari...

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Life page on Instagram

For the first time in my life I’m going to actually try to be an organized musician who has dedicated places for people to find and interact with my music so I’m making Instagram accounts for all my active projects here’s the first one https://www.instagram.com/lifeemo...

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sadness - on an april night

i recorded all the drums for this in the beginning of 2021 (january). i always had a loose idea of what i wanted to do with this song where i record all the drums first and build the rest of the instruments on top of the drum improvisation, but i just never got around to making the rest of the song until just now
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on an april night you feel like rain
that flutters like dancing f...

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Upcoming shows


5/2 (Philly, PA) Sadness, Barbelith, Curse, Lastima https://link.dice.fm/5t03jmtjMSb?sharer_id=6501f56d887d82000170a729

5/4 (Baltimore, MD) Nuvolascura, life, mondrary, Julia set 2025-04-23 12:10:06 +0000 UTC View Post

life - untitled two

elusive snow

glistening on a shimmering screen

words hidden in fragments melt as they kiss the river

and it’s for their edges carved in my veins

that I know your name suspending over the back of my ear

like fingers in desperate quivering love

yet somehow as still as slowly rippling warm hands in winter water

how does a still image flutter so much<...

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home is in your arms

let me say the words right 

i might repeat and stumble 

I might blink only in between the moments of your breathing

my hands might twirl in ways they never otherwise would 

but i promise at the end of my stuttering I’ll reach my trembling hand enough to hold yours

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life - let me be everything

again guest vocals by my friend who screamed on a lot of the other recent songs

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the sound of a hurting voice pulsing against an impatient surface

a heart full of things that aren’t mine

in my dreams a bed that has never been laid in

it writes selfish words along its open hands

open to give everything

my eyes have been wide open hoping to find ...

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More riffs jecantá£rënmáshra

Again i recorded this video when i came up with it just to save the idea cause i knew i definitely wanted to make a song out of it later

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Riff

Found this video I took when I came up with one of the riffs in “jecantá£rënmáshra” . This was just in case I ever needed to remind myself to use this in a song later

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home is in your arms

your eyes speak like the colors raining down your body beautiful clothing dressed for the season and perfected for the occasion that every day could be the day you fall in love for the first time

and yet you didn’t know

you didn’t know

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life - how i learned to speak

is it enough

the only interaction between me and distant lights

is hoping somehow that they’re making eye contact

with me

i hope I am the night sky

i hope I am the glistening window

as big as the entire story

as much of your world as this whole room

is it enough that you’re my whole world

is it enough that I can’t stop staring at ...

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life - light on surface

like i said in the previous posts this song has additional vocals performed by me friend https://www.instagram.com/emoviolenza/
she appears on this song, the previous song, her eyes the burning song, let me be everything, it would, (if you dont recognize these names it's because i havent posted them yet) and will ...

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life - (??? i don't know what to call this yet)

https://www.instagram.com/emoviolenza/ is my friend who has been providing all the epic additional screaming on these new songs (of which there are many more). i even have her helping out on some of the other songs i already thought i had finished (like in helpless gesture and cold channel) because it's so much ...

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trhä - pah'lejra

i recorded most of this in 2023

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life - if i could

once again I see you in my dreams

again and again I’m given the last moments I’ll ever see you

and never knowing they’re the end

you know id spend them in the perfect way

if I only knew

you know I would

you know I’d become every word I’ve ever said

as if no one’s listening

as if for the first time I discovered

just how much

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