Lil Dee

Turmoil???

I think there’s an assumption that I have to be dastardly and completely cut open in order to write the way that I do—a kind of incomprehensible unhappiness perhaps. But the truth of the matter is I simply enjoy the way complex ideas and struggles sound. I enjoy the workings of inner human suffering that grows from thought, it brings me happiness to contemplate things critically and to chal...

A Date with Death 🖤

Some extra images that I wanted to share, but felt didn't add to the current set I was working on! I like the emotion in both of these for opposite reasons...or maybe for the same reason! anyway, a little something extra for everyone :3

A Date with Death part 2 🖤

Midsummer Day Dream

It snowed in Florida...

Betrothed part 3 of 5

The Feminine Urge part 2, look 1

Critical Estimation of an Unhinged Reality?

It’s not so much that reality has left me unhinged, but that rather it has given me no choice, but to unhinge myself from it. It asks you to believe in so many ridiculous and absurd things that it is rather better to become disassociated from that norm than to give in. So really, is it unhinged to want to separate from, what is to you, the absolute absence of perceived normality, rationality(...

Entry 1

free flowing thought experiment. thinking of means to connect beyond the physical nature of things. beyond the confines of the way they appear. the energetic process of connection, or trite misnomered words like "chemistry." what is the process of longevity in reality? the quantifiable thing that makes the effort worth the energy it's poured into? witnessing patterns that are actionable , obser...

Backless part 3

the final part of this series 🖤

The Insatiable Heiress part 2

the story or the title of the photos does most of the heavy lifting for the work itself. sometimes I can't imagine the work without the title. what else would tell the imaginative story? would the story have begun by the poses? the wardrobe? or perhaps the time spent on makeup...the titles. The fuel for the fire, in my eyes. Unless the title sucks...and then. you're screwed. and not in a good w...

Her Name is Candy Cane

she's a real treat . . .
Happy Holidays and Merry Christmas 🤍

Untamable Wilderness

Christmas Preview ♨️

Makeup and Outfit Details~

Swinger

I wanted this to feel like a memory of a time you had with me, or maybe you made it up in your imagination, like a day dream sequence, that's how I want most of my work to feel 🖤

Cleanliness is Next to Godliness part 2

🧐

I want to do a head shot photoshoot, but of just inappropriate faces and gestures, I think I shall add this to my list of ideas, the second set of photos are irrelevant to this train of thought…

Leda and the Swan

I wasn't going to edit this set either, I had done the first half of it in black and white on the bed, which I was unhappy with how it turned out, after shooting.
So I decided to try to shoot this look in the bathroom instead. I typically try my best to avoid bathrooms as a back drop for shoots, mostly due to the fact that they are over done in my opinion. Tube shoots, shower shoots, etc. B...

Dreams of Summer

I was actually reading in these photos, this shoot wasn't my idea, but that of my business partner's! If it feels different in tone, it's because I didn't direct it at all, which admittedly is hard for a control freak like me x)

Appreciation.

What does it look like for you to feel appreciated?
I don't know if I have my answer, but as of late I feel drained?
As though no one is capable of pouring back into me. Or perhaps they don't pour fast enough, or even still- what they pour is unintelligible to me.
I feel as though I want to shut everything away and lose myself to the world of books and storytelling. That way no one wi...

The Shadow Man part 1

From Google: A term for dark silhouettes: Some people describe shadow people as dark figures that flicker in and out of peripheral vision. Some believe they are aliens, while others speculate they may be inhabitants of another universe.

Betrothed part 2

The last image is of me freezing my nips off! >_<
This was in the winter in Oregon, and while pretty, this stone cabin was not well insulated ^^;

A Date with Death part 1

Happy Halloween!

I know I normally do a traditional costume for Halloween posts,
but I figured since things have been difficult and hard lately, I'd post my latest cosplay!
Death of the Endless 🖤
I hope you all have a spooky and fun day planned, if not today, then this weekend~

Boring

I think routine is often misunderstood— most of my life is pretty routine.

I work, I workout, I eat, I watch shows, I read, I sleep. And in between all these tasks, I think and look forward to hanging out with people I love or traveling to different places in the world, or coming up with some new concepts to shoot, draw—

I used to think all this made me mundane, boring. Becaus...

Imaginary Friend

The Feminine Urge part 1, look 1

I often wish we existed as energy. I believe we contain it within our human houses, (our bodies) but I wish we presented and appeared to one another in that energetic form, rather than in our human suits. I imagine it would lend to more honest and genuine connection, or at least that’s what my imagination and belief tells me. Being born a woman, and finding out what that entails, all the expe...

Hair Update

I did my hair! I have been going back and forth on keeping it black or letting my natural color grow out and do a dimensional look, but I finally decided on longer bangs and a natural black versus my usual jet black...I know a lot of you like the bangs! But I guess you're just gonna have to get used to my forehead until I change my mind again! 🙃...which will happen...!

I am a mess!!!

Lovingly, as my friend would say to caveat the criticism— I am spiraling a bit, but not in a bad way. Things have gotten very challenging while also being strangely hopeful?? I still don’t know what comes next, but I hope what I am working towards helps me make this hobby more sustainable and fun, and less reliant upon the monetary success it has—

Anyway! Some updates on what I look...

Backless part 2

low braid variation, I was actually really indecisive about how to wear my hair for these photos, in the first version, I wore it up in a high ponytail. But overall, this shoot ( the 3rd of the day) had me feeling burnt out, and I ended up shooting a third variation outside on the balcony. I'll post the 3rd part later in December most likely, since it has a wintery feeling~

newness

all the confusion and turmoil of trusting new people and circumstance; a truly wildly beautiful and yet revolting painful process, like shedding in one piece or a metamorphosis (I would imagine.) A complete reinvention of the self, and the hypocrisy and ecstasy of the uncertainty and unease that abounds with so much newness! it makes you eager for more yet reticent. Where will this g...

The A U T O M A T O N part 2