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๐—š๐—ถ๐—ณ๐˜ ๐—ง๐—ต๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐—ฒ

๐—š๐—ถ๐—ณ๐˜ ๐—ง๐—ต๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐—ฒ:
A Watch

โ…๐—–๐—ต๐—ฎ๐—ฝ๐˜๐—ฒ๐—ฟ ๐—ง๐—ต๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐—ฒโ…

"He looks the exact same," I said, shaking my head as I ate more of the curly fries.

Nelli lazily raised her brows, "They all do," she corrected me, dipping a few of the fries in the ketchup.

I let out a deep sigh...

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๐—š๐—ถ๐—ณ๐˜ ๐—ง๐˜„๐—ผ

Gift Two:
Fresh Air

โ…๐—–๐—ต๐—ฎ๐—ฝ๐˜๐—ฒ๐—ฟ ๐—ง๐˜„๐—ผโ…

"Yeah, we'll just do dinner at my place," I said as I merged onto the highway, "I already know things with my dad will run over."

I heard Nelli sigh, "Okay, can you pick up Cuban Heat?" she asked, which immediately made me nod recalling the familiar downtown restaurant.

I'm n...

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๐—š๐—ถ๐—ณ๐˜ ๐—ข๐—ป๐—ฒ

Gift One:
Peace

โ…๐—–๐—ต๐—ฎ๐—ฝ๐˜๐—ฒ๐—ฟ ๐—ข๐—ป๐—ฒโ…

I let out a deep sigh, frantically glancing around the large living area of my apartment.

Which was still full of unpacked boxes.

"Fuck," I whispered, realizing I was going to be late.

And on my first day too.

The irony is that I'm the professor...

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A HUGE thank you + Updatesโค๏ธ

Hi angels, I just want to come on here and say a huge thank you to everyone showing love & support regarding the ending. I couldnโ€™t exactly answer every single comment, but it truly meant a lot to me. I know to some it didnโ€™t make sense or it left you unsatisfied & everyone is entitled to their own opinions. What really means the most to me is still using kind wor...

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Ruined Explanation

So a lot of you guys are a little confused by this last chapter of Ruined and if theyโ€™re together or not. Short answer, yes Sevan and Zinovia are still together. The ending was more or so highlighting the complex dynamic of their toxic relationship. They were never supposed to be this perfect couple (i.e they are Ruined as stated in the book description). T...

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๐’๐ˆ๐—๐“๐˜-๐’๐ˆ๐— | Ruined

๐‚๐ก๐š๐ฉ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ ๐’๐ข๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฒ-๐’๐ข๐ฑ
"๐‘๐ฎ๐ข๐ง๐ž๐"

โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹˜โ‹˜โ‹˜

I am unsure if I should be worried.

It had been hours since I last laid eyes on Sevan and she had broken her previous claims of joining us while we play chess.

We had eaten, played numerous games of chess, got dessert when Sevan showed no signs...

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๐’๐ˆ๐—๐“๐˜-๐…๐ˆ๐•๐„ | Dread

๐‚๐ก๐š๐ฉ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ ๐’๐ข๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฒ-๐…๐ข๐ฏ๐ž
"๐ƒ๐ซ๐ž๐š๐"

โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹˜โ‹˜โ‹˜

The next morning I awoke with a feeling I had never experienced before.

Dread. 

I had only a few blissful seconds before it hit me.

Before yesterday hit me.

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A Corrupted Christmas Playlist

Hiii my angels, you all know what's beginning to approach... With two days until A Corrupted Christmas, I've decided to share the official playlist with my Patreon beauties first. Enjoy๐Ÿ’‹๐ŸŽ„

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๐’๐ˆ๐—๐“๐˜-๐…๐Ž๐”๐‘ | Even

๐‚๐ก๐š๐ฉ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ ๐’๐ข๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฒ-๐…๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ
"๐„๐ฏ๐ž๐ง"

โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹˜โ‹˜โ‹˜

I didn't care about where Ivan had been.

I didn't care if he possibly betrayed me all along.

Or even lied to me at some point.

Right now, he looked like home and all I wanted to do was hug him.

Which naturally caught him off guard, enti...

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Me after chapter 63๐Ÿ’—

everyone really hated Ivan and then Yuri & Arina for a MINUTE๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ i got ALL of you for reallll

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๐’๐ˆ๐—๐“๐˜-๐“๐‡๐‘๐„๐„ | Done

๐‚๐ก๐š๐ฉ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ ๐’๐ข๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฒ-๐“๐ก๐ซ๐ž๐ž
"๐ƒ๐จ๐ง๐ž"

โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹˜โ‹˜โ‹˜

I take back what I previously said...

Because I am liar too.

I lied about killing Darioโ€”something Sevan still doesn't know about.

The old me would not be so mindful of this.

I would simply kill Sevan for knowing this information t...

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๐’๐ˆ๐—๐“๐˜-๐“๐–๐Ž | No One

๐‚๐ก๐š๐ฉ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ ๐’๐ข๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฒ-๐“๐ฐ๐จ

"๐๐จ ๐Ž๐ง๐ž"

โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹˜โ‹˜โ‹˜

I stared out of the tinted window, noticing the abandoned industrial building we were slowly approaching.

Nikolai instinctively kept his hand on his gun tucked into his side.

Meanwhile, I didn't bother bringing one.

I knew it would be removed from me b...

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๐’๐ˆ๐—๐“๐˜-๐Ž๐๐„ | After

๐‚๐ก๐š๐ฉ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ ๐’๐ข๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฒ-๐Ž๐ง๐ž
"๐€๐Ÿ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ"

โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹˜โ‹˜โ‹˜

I awoke to the sound of distant waves and the lull of seagulls, wrapped in nothing but messy covers and Sevan's arms.

We had leaked different locations to everyone we could think of, eating dinner as we handled business.

And then I was beyond ready to go to slee...

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๐’๐ˆ๐—๐“๐˜ | Nowhere

๐‚๐ก๐š๐ฉ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ ๐’๐ข๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฒ
"๐๐จ๐ฐ๐ก๐ž๐ซ๐ž"

โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹˜โ‹˜โ‹˜

Everything around me felt almost nonexistent.

Once I had screamed my lungs out until they burned raw, I had nothing much left to give.

No response.

Not even a head nod.

I was almost out of focus, feeling everything blur into nothing around m...

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๐…๐ˆ๐…๐“๐˜-๐๐ˆ๐๐„ | Everything

๐‚๐ก๐š๐ฉ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ ๐…๐ข๐Ÿ๐ญ๐ฒ-๐๐ข๐ง๐ž
"๐„๐ฏ๐ž๐ซ๐ฒ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ง๐ "

โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹˜โ‹˜โ‹˜

"Sevan," I laughed out as she pulled me back into her, "Breakfast is waiting," I reminded her.

"I know," Sevan murmured insinuatingly as we walked down the wide hallway.

I jokingly rolled my eyes, nudging her away, "We c...

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๐…๐ˆ๐…๐“๐˜-๐„๐ˆ๐†๐‡๐“ | Perfect Morning

๐‚๐ก๐š๐ฉ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ ๐…๐ข๐Ÿ๐ญ๐ฒ-๐„๐ข๐ ๐ก๐ญ
"๐๐ž๐ซ๐Ÿ๐ž๐œ๐ญ ๐Œ๐จ๐ซ๐ง๐ข๐ง๐ "

โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹˜โ‹˜โ‹˜

I let out a content sigh, watching as Sevan threw the underwear she stripped me of across the room.

It barely took us a minute to practically rip the clothes from each other's bodies until we were left with li...

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๐…๐ˆ๐…๐“๐˜-๐’๐„๐•๐„๐ | Okay Progress

๐‚๐ก๐š๐ฉ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ ๐…๐ข๐Ÿ๐ญ๐ฒ-๐’๐ž๐ฏ๐ž๐ง
"๐Ž๐ค๐š๐ฒ ๐๐ซ๐จ๐ ๐ซ๐ž๐ฌ๐ฌ"

โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹˜โ‹˜โ‹˜

"So, Arina," I went to speak, glancing away from the tinted window, "Is Sevan still not that great?" I asked, quoting her previous words.

Arina briefly pursed her lips together, glancing from me over to Sevan.

W...

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๐…๐ˆ๐…๐“๐˜-๐’๐ˆ๐— | Big Win

๐‚๐ก๐š๐ฉ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ ๐…๐ข๐Ÿ๐ญ๐ฒ-๐’๐ข๐ฑ
"๐๐ข๐  ๐–๐ข๐ง"

โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹˜โ‹˜โ‹˜

I let out a content sigh as I settled under the steamy water of the shower, letting it fully soak my dark hair.

And as more steam grew around me, I reached for the shampooโ€”lathering it in my hair as I leaned away from the water for a moment.

Once it was l...

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๐…๐ˆ๐…๐“๐˜-๐…๐ˆ๐•๐„ | Promoted

๐‚๐ก๐š๐ฉ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ ๐…๐ข๐Ÿ๐ญ๐ฒ-๐…๐ข๐ฏ๐ž
"๐๐ซ๐จ๐ฆ๐จ๐ญ๐ž๐"

โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹˜โ‹˜โ‹˜

"So do we have plans for executioners?" I curiously asked as I took a brief sip from the water bottle Sevan had handed me. 

I had officially been in this hospital another night. 

Technically when I overdosed, that was my f...

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New Updating Schedule๐Ÿ’—

Hi angels, starting now until next Monday (11/25). There will be double updates every day so we can finish Ruined and prepare for A Corrupted Christmas. This means there wonโ€™t be chapter visual previews and there wonโ€™t always be a set time when the chapters come out everyday. I hope everyone can understand and I look forward to finishing Ruined with you al...

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๐…๐ˆ๐…๐“๐˜-๐…๐Ž๐”๐‘ | Uncalculated Decisions

๐‚๐ก๐š๐ฉ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ ๐…๐ข๐Ÿ๐ญ๐ฒ-๐…๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ
"๐”๐ง๐œ๐š๐ฅ๐œ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐š๐ญ๐ž๐ ๐ƒ๐ž๐œ๐ข๐ฌ๐ข๐จ๐ง๐ฌ"

โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹˜โ‹˜โ‹˜

It was the smell that surrounded me immediatelyโ€”sharp, sterile, like the air had been scrubbed clean.

My head felt heavy like it was stuffed with cotton, making every muscle ...

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๐…๐ˆ๐…๐“๐˜-๐“๐‡๐‘๐„๐„ | Firsts

๐‚๐ก๐š๐ฉ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ ๐…๐ข๐Ÿ๐ญ๐ฒ-๐“๐ก๐ซ๐ž๐ž
"๐…๐ข๐ซ๐ฌ๐ญ๐ฌ"

โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹˜โ‹˜โ‹˜

The air between us was silent. 

Almost stilled as we walked side by side toward the front door. 

Which Sevan instinctively opened for me, motioning me through first. 

And I didn't hesitate to walk past her, feeling the sharp cold...

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๐‚๐ก๐š๐ฉ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ ๐…๐ข๐Ÿ๐ญ๐ฒ-๐“๐ก๐ซ๐ž๐ž ๐•๐ข๐ฌ๐ฎ๐š๐ฅ ๐๐ซ๐ž๐ฏ๐ข๐ž๐ฐ

Chapter 53 will be out this evening๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’—

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๐…๐ˆ๐…๐“๐˜-๐“๐–๐Ž | Common Sense

๐‚๐ก๐š๐ฉ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ ๐…๐ข๐Ÿ๐ญ๐ฒ-๐“๐ฐ๐จ
"๐‚๐จ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐จ๐ง ๐’๐ž๐ง๐ฌ๐ž"

โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹˜โ‹˜โ‹˜

The next day I was up very early. 

I felt oddly refreshed and craving nothing but the simplicities of my typical life. 

I did my usual skincare, got dressed in a short white dress with matching stockings and ...

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Christmas Giveaway๐ŸŽ„๐Ÿ’‹

hi angelsโ€ฆ due to your constant love and support throughout this year, iโ€™ve decided to put on my santa hat and hold a Christmas Giveaway! two beautiful readers, one from Patreon and one from Wattpad, will make my nice list and receive three free months in my Early Access Patreon tier. each winner will also get to pick one of my existing books for a special...

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๐…๐ˆ๐…๐“๐˜-๐Ž๐๐„ | Mutual Interests

๐‚๐ก๐š๐ฉ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ ๐…๐ข๐Ÿ๐ญ๐ฒ-๐Ž๐ง๐ž
"๐Œ๐ฎ๐ญ๐ฎ๐š๐ฅ ๐ˆ๐ง๐ญ๐ž๐ซ๐ž๐ฌ๐ญ๐ฌ"

โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹˜โ‹˜โ‹˜

The inside of the Porsche smelt of fresh leather.

Which was really the only thing I could focus on given the silence between me and Viviana.

Her actions were smooth, focusing purely on driving the car as if there was...

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๐‚๐ก๐š๐ฉ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ ๐…๐ข๐Ÿ๐ญ๐ฒ-๐Ž๐ง๐ž ๐•๐ข๐ฌ๐ฎ๐š๐ฅ ๐๐ซ๐ž๐ฏ๐ข๐ž๐ฐ

Chapter 51 will be out tonight angels:)

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๐…๐ˆ๐…๐“๐˜ | Ultimatum

๐‚๐ก๐š๐ฉ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ ๐…๐ข๐Ÿ๐ญ๐ฒ
"๐”๐ฅ๐ญ๐ข๐ฆ๐š๐ญ๐ฎ๐ฆ"

โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹˜โ‹˜โ‹˜

"We can't." 

I remained silent for a moment, processing the two words she had to spare. 

But a part of me expected this. 

I am unsure of why I mentioned it in the first place. 

"Then I leave," I determined, not wanting to be an...

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๐…๐Ž๐‘๐“๐˜-๐๐ˆ๐๐„ | Establish

๐‚๐ก๐š๐ฉ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ ๐…๐จ๐ซ๐ญ๐ฒ-๐„๐ข๐ ๐ก๐ญ

"๐„๐ฌ๐ญ๐š๐›๐ฅ๐ข๐ฌ๐ก"

โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹™โ‹˜โ‹˜โ‹˜

Warm cinnamon.

It was all around me, surrounding me almost like open arms.

Dark brown wood floors contrasted the white walls lingering with a detailed crown molding.

Everything seemed to have a spot.

And from what I could t...

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Update๐Ÿ’—

hi angels<3 thank you so much for your patience and support this previous weekend. i'm so excited to be back with you guys & resuming our previously scheduled updates. i love you all so so much & chapter 49 will be out in around an hour ish!!

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