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January Progress

January was a strange month for me. I was diagnosed with depression and PTSD and started treatment. Since I started taking medication I haven't had any anxiety attacks and I don't have mood swings as severe as they were in the last two years. On the other hand, adjusting to the medication made me almost like a zombie. The entire January was like a blur and most of my depleted mental strength wa...

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December Progress

This month was better than the previous one. I finished one scene and am looking forward to having some progress in January. Hopefully when the new fiscal year has started it will be easier to get a job. So far I see more jobs at the dispatch so this looks promising. Also, I found some alternative routes to...

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Just noticed something.

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November Progress

I'm sorry to say this, but I couldn't finish any work on the cartoon this month because of a hole in the budget left from buying a car. I needed to close it to avoid fines. I was able to do it with a few days to spare, but it wasn't enough to make any noteworthy progress on the cartoon. As I said last month, the path ahead of me is straightforward, but still rather unstable as I'm trying to set...

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October Progress

In October I finished the application process for the apprenticeship. I didn't get in this time but at least now so the next half-a-year is a rather straightforward process with an entry-level job in the field. Hopefully, it'll leave me with more free time for the cartoon, compared to commission work.

During the month I was working on the storyboards for the last third of the cartoon. Som...

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September Progress

During the month I finished one scene. And sketched storyboards of a couple of versions for the ending but none of them "clicked". I have the idea but I still need to figure out how to make it exactly. Funny how creating action scenes is kinda easier compared to creating emotional scenes. I guess I...

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Unexpected.

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August Progress

It was a busy month. I finished the math course and applied for an apprenticeship program. Now I have a few months of a lull while I get through the application process. I hope to use it to make some more progress on the cartoon but I also had to open commissions since a few months of study without work drained part of my savings.

Besides finishing my studies I also finished rough frames ...

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July Progress

Finished one scene (though it only has background) and was a few days short of finishing another scene but got sick (nothing serious, just a common cold but an angry one). Not the most productive month for me to be honest, but at least I'm still able to work on the cartoon. Thyroid medications work great so it seems thyroid really was one of the major reasons for my low productivity last year. ...

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June Progress

My commission income dropped drastically and studio jobs here pay poverty wages so now I'm studying for a career change. Don't worry, it doesn't mean I'll have less time to work on the cartoon. Most likely it'll be the opposite since the commission work schedule was bizarre and way over the normal 40 hours a week.

Plus it turned out I had thyroid issues for quite some time which might exp...

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Going for a trip.

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May Progress

Things are getting better and I have a general plan of what to do with my situation. There are still some unknowns and risks though. But at least for the next two years, I have some relative stability.

I'm halfway through another scene. Sorry, I wasn't able to finish it before the end of the month.

2023-05-31 03:10:37 +0000 UTC View Post

April Progress

This month I was able to finish two scenes. One of them was published. I'm still in process of transition even if I managed to finish most of the stuff I had to do when I just arrived. I'm working on improving my situation and if all go well I might even be able to dedicate more time on that cartoon.

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The temptation...

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March Progress

Sorry, settling into a new place is taking a lot of energy and mental resources and I also learned that I have to pay an estimated quarterly tax here. Figuring it out without any accountants who would've agreed to take a new client and didn't cost an arm and a leg took way too much effort.

Anyway, in March I finished 2023-04-11 05:23:27 +0000 UTC View Post

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On the way out of the shop.

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Kulkuri, the hobo demon

Drew my character from the Infernum game. Kulkuri is a prideful ambitious hobo demon who started playing the hellish game - conquer or die. So far its conquests are... modest. But it's just a few weeks old, practically still a demonic larva. Everything is still in the future.

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February Progress

I started working on a group of three similar scenes but wasn't able to finish it because I needed to prepare to move to another country. Now I'm in USA and honestly I have absolutely no idea how everything will go. Either way I will still be spending my spare time on the cartoon. Until the war is over and I'm able to return home and rebuild my life again I can't be certain of anything. I'm sor...

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January Progress

January was a bit better than December so I could finish two similar scenes. The one I published is the shortest of the two. 

Thank you very much for staying with me and for supporting my cartoon!

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What is she writing?

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December Progress

Huh. I was sure I had published this. 

Well. December was a difficult month. To be honest, the whole year was difficult and I have no idea how will 2023 will go. My visa application was denied and I'm unable to return back home. We're no longer renting our old apartment and my friend helped to collect some of our belongings. Two times we had to leave our home with two bags of belongi...

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New challenger appears!

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November Progress

Still struggling but at least I managed to find enough time to finish another scene. The future is uncertain. It's been over a month since I submitted my visa application and I still didn't get the reply. At least the immigration bureaucracy is working again and there are already Russians who finally got th...

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The roof octopus has to keep going.

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October Progress

For entire month I was running across Italy back and forth trying to get all the papers needed for a visa and by the end of the month I applied for a visa! However because of that I didn't have enough spare time to work on the cartoon and I fell way behind in my work schedule. Sorry, but this month I made no progress on the cartoon. On the brighter side - I don't need to run with papers for som...

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Kyoko

Late birthday present for JulianTheTurtle.

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Metal Demon

A random metal-themed demon character idea that has been bugging me for a few weeks.

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September Progress

Well. Okay, it took me almost a year to finish that scene. I started this scene in February and then the war and a whole lot of problems related to that fell and keep falling on me. But at least in September I finally managed to finish the scene I started in the past life.

2022-10-04 18:50:01 +0000 UTC View Post

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Sugar is also essential.

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August (non)Progress

This month even more problems piled up. My only way to withdraw money got suspended and I'm trying to fix it with the service's exceedingly slow support. Same with my wife's account. We've been trying to find a way to fix that + trying to get all documents for a visa + attempting to find alternatives in case we won't be able to return back home + still working on commissions to earn money and l...

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