Heyo peeps. I hope you're doing well.
Like its usual in me (well, usual in fA, its the first time I post it here I think), the first weeks of December I make a review of what the year was for me, stuff I did, what I expect for the next year and stuff. 2017 was a super important year for me in a ton of things, good and bad. Let's go then.
In January I got registered for the Eurofurence, the furry convention that I wanted to visit since almost a decade ago. I gotta say my brain still couldnt grab what was happening- I was pretty much confirming that I'd travel out of my country, would meet peeps I died for meeting, and I would have an awesome vacation time. When I purchased the airplane tickets in February, only then I started to finally assimilate what was coming.
March was a month marked by losses. Two friends of mine died, one due to a job accident, and another one because he didnt care about an illness that finally got ahold of him. That got me quite depressed. I retook job, but depression was very very strong and keeping focus in pretty much anything ranged between hard and impossible. I had a ton of goals to have done by late May, and I was ending them around july. I tried a lot of things yet stuff wasnt easy, like, at all. And only after the depression was replaced by a sense of urgency I was able to grab it and start leaving it behind.
However, the months of depression finally left in exchange for the feeling of urgency and "Hurry up motherfucker" as the trip was coming closer every time. And it came.
I visited Germany for one month and half.
Several things were different to how I imagined them, but others were similar. And being honest, while it made me appreciate my country a bit more (just wishing we could have the society/advances Germany has), I actually fell more in love with Germany. I already made journals and posts detailing my experiences (and I even made an article that was posted in a chilean news website) talking about my experiences). And that without even mentioning not only people I had the pleasure to meet in RL (Foshu, Swift Ayama, Yumi Akiyama, Sparky the Chu) but also the person I love the most (Katojana) that also had to endure me in his place for all that period of time.
The Eurofurence was The Experience™. I loved it so much that I was sure I was coming back even before the first day ended. Maaaan furcons are beautiful.
Coming back marked the beginning of a different era. I started planning my future and to catch up with the tons of stuff I left in pause during the time I was gone. Catching up was probs the hardest thing I've done in my life, and the more I caught up, more stuff kept coming. Fortunately this week I'll be done with everything. Aaaahhhh. (I'll also send the Patreon form during this week).
However, that isnt the highlight. See.
During my time outside I started to realize about how I must tackle my future in general. You see, I love vore. You know I love vore. I love drawing vore and stuff. However, I want also to be known for my non vorish artwork. And I couldn't let myself stay more time "quiet". If my previous months teach me something, is that life is way too short to suffer it all the time or to waste it doing nothing. So I started seriously to plan projects that I'll start working the next year, projects that will let me build a portfolio for the day I decide to move definitely to Germany. I also started to put much more care in the artwork I do. I've been teased why I dont work as fast as I used to-- I cant. Right now my mind is focused in quality. I think you have noticed that my art, as slow as it became, has more attention to detail and more care than before.
Material wise, this weekend I finally upgraded my computer, something that had been waiting for years. Now I only need the video card that will come in some months and that'll be it.
Anyways, I look back at what 2017 brought. Not only big loses, but also bigger hopes and probably the most rewarding experience I've had in my life.
And as much as the loses made the first half of the year an authentic shit, the second half has been getting better and better.
2018 looks interesting. Its a year where I'm going to be actively working to finish upgrading my computer, to buy important stuff, to save for my next trip to Germany (If you visit the Eurofurence 25 in 2019, I'll be there!) but more importantly, I'll learn art properly from scratch, I'll work to learn to do the stuff I was never good for, and I'll also start working in my projects, that may not be related to fetishes at all, but that for me mean a world.
2017 was a full year, a very active one, and one that I'll treasure forever.
2018 will be better.
I love you all.
See you next week.
- Victor