Coming Through (Hi-Res)

On the hunt for a villain.

A painting for Yoshils!  His big ol' self, squeezing... maybe a little unsuccessfully, but  squeezing all the same, through a city street on the hunt for a villain  that has (momentarily) escaped his sight.

I had a ton of fun with this one! No, that's not a joke over his mass, I  swear. I think this is the largest body I've drawn now, too. I'm still  struggling a little bit with anatomy at these sorts of sizes, but it's a  fun puzzle to figure out. And rendering it out is still fun. Very happy  with how Yoshils turned out here. c:

Much love, Yoshils, for trusting me with your fantastic guy! Enjoy, ya'll.

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The other thing I've been working on for a bit! In relation to the DoC ring image, this is also a bit why I sometimes don't know how to talk about what I do with people in real life, or why I tell family members I just "paint D&D or fantasy things" and don't have a portfolio active (it's always "something I'm working on")!

On one hand, it's very fun to figure this sort of anatomy out, and fit it within a scene, light it accurately, and so on. On the other, it's also... Not really something you can show someone without making them flush red, or making the conversation suddenly awkward. I know that isn't the case with -everyone-, but I suppose I just haven't yet found the courage to say to people that, rather than just a D&D painter or whatever, that I "illustrate fantasy work, but sometimes adult themes."

But that's also in part due to how people may react to this sort of stuff. Sure, again, some are fine with it... But I guess, living in America and knowing that what I do for a living, as well as parts of who I am, are frowned upon by a fairly sizeable portion of the population is... Nerve-wracking. Eventually it'd be nice to have the courage to just say it, to be honest, even if I still don't think I'm gonna want to show anyone it, aha. (Sorry, dentist's assistant, but I promise, you don't need to see it... Especially if you're going to be drilling into my teeth in a moment!)

This sort of work is also what makes me flounder back and forth on if what I do is "okay" or "good enough", now that things like the entertainment industry have sort of shown themselves to be inhospitable or just unkind to its people. There's a lot of baggage to "the legacy your art leaves" when it comes to learning and doing art. Maybe not for someone self-taught or strictly within the fandom, but going through college, it was something drilled into me for four years and... It's hard to just shake that. When I'm gone some day, and people look back on my work, if I'm remembered in any way... Well... I wonder if anyone will be as thirsty over Yoshils' character build here as I am, aha.

Anyways. That's a lot of existentialism for a Patreon post. Something more suited for an actual voiced discussion, maybe on a stream or something? Or a much more thought out post, not just the ramblings of whatever comes to mind in the moment as I'm typing.

I'm gonna go order Taco Bell now. Goolashe is going to be upset about that, but I want that mushy 5 Layer Burrito and I want it real bad.

Ya'll, thank you again for bearing with me, and especially if you've read this stuff. I dunno if it actually does get read sometimes, and I dunno if some of what I talk about here makes up for the $5 tier. It's something I know I say I want to work on more. I'll be trying to do that more this year. Seriously. Yes, actually. I want to try and do something more, or maybe give preference for commission slots to Patreon folks, or something? We'll hammer it out. It's not #1 on the list, but it is on the list. I always feel I need to do more. Thank you so much for your support. It seriously means the world to me. 

Love you all. Stay safe out there. <3