Both physically and mentally.
But I'll be back. I'm coming back.
I'm just.....exhausted right now.
It feels as if I've died in little ways over the last few years. They're all adding up..
But i wanna live.
So I gotta figure out how to rest while still working and nurturing my creativity.
Advice and kind words are welcome. ♡
Anyw...
Meet Lil Sherman.
He's a lil lightning bug dude. I'm still deciding where to go with him but I wanted to share bc I'm stuck and he's cute and Cereal helped me name him yesterday.
Shout out to my friend CerealSensei for being so cool and taking me and my shenanigans seriously. 💛
I'm using acrylic pain...
I started streaming today, 5 years ago.
My initial plan was to stop after today. But I.. need a little more time....
Enjoy some clouds.
I'm in Detroit for a few days with Blerdz Unite 💛✨
here's the sky yesterday.
Hello again.
Been a minute, I know.... 😮💨
I'm here to talk about two paintings," just bloom" and "silas"...
So. Starting with just bloom. This was the first piece that I did when I got back to my grandparents house. I did it with oil pastel on canvas. I just wanted to see what oil pastel would do. I've never used oil paint before. And I wanna work up to that eventually...
Mine is called a Gold Rush - Four Roses bourbon, lemon, and honey. Made at Proof in Charleston, SC, this is the drink I'd have before and after a show, a shift, or whatever. It's refreshing and soothes my throat the same time.
I painted this during Everything_CUSH's paint & sip stream yesterday. I/we had a grand time. 10/10 would definitely do again. I miss feeling able to art witho...
My siblings' team competed this weekend. It's been fun so far.
Have some clouds. Yesterday was very rainy... Today is much better.
So... I started this post at the beginning of March. Like March 2nd. My alt text and captions were kinda hilarious. That's all gone now. I'm not gonna try to replicate it. Let's just take a moment to morn that potential bit of hilarity. . . . . . . ☺️
One more because this has happened more than once and it really hurts my feelings . . . . .
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I got kicked out of my account for some reason but I'm back now.
I went out on an adventure today so have some sky and water. And a 9/11 memorial.. 💛
I did this with oil pastels and acrylic paint pens. I dunno the name yet. Oil pastels are fun... Might do another i get back home.
Started it over the weekend. Dunno if it's finished yet.
hi.
here's a free cloud.
I've moved physically but I'm still unpacking. I also did Something to my computer that needs to be fixed before I can do anything strenuous on it (like streaming/gaming).
So far, I've started two paintings, chosen another pen name option, and done a stovetop cookie experiment. I'll post them.
I know I'm really behind on stuff... Hopefully I ...
SO
I drew something yesterday.
Remember my poem, "Danger"? The one with the push & pull, paddleball imagery? (It's ok. I'll put it below. 🫶🏾)
Well I drew it. And promptly passed out. This is gonna take a while. But I'm doing it. And I'm proud of myself for it. Anyway, here's "Danger":
I’m in danger
Caught up in your current
i worked this weekend & had a really fun time. This go round we had CC + The Adelitas led by drummer/composer/educator Dr. Colleen Clark, featuring vocalist Andrea Chavarro, trumpeter Rachel Therrien, clarinetist Virginia MacDonald, pianist Arcoiris Sandoval, and bassist
I got this yesterday in the drive thru. I'm glad my phone decided to cooperate and save this. I planned to take more but it was gone by the time I'd gotten my food. So I say that to say ....
Opportunities wait for no one. And it seems we gotta make our own now. Especially if there are things we wanna see in the world or in our lifetime. Things will only happen if we make them happen. The...
1/11/2024
It's 1/11. So much has already happened. Happy New Year. I'm 30 now. Thank you for the birthday love and well wishes. 💛
I'm gonna be honest - I'm terrified. My timer is starting to ring and I feel... unprepared still. I'm not done cooking yet. Please. Give me 5 more minutes. There's still a little chill in the pit of my belly, my heart is still thawing. My hands and f...
(over)whelm
please don't touch me
i'm really cold and feelin’ small
i just want to lay watch this wall
no response to texts or answerin’ calls
No.
please don't touch me
i don't want any hugs
please don't smother me w love
and cause my vision to become a blur of…
sorta kinda wanna disappear
i will still exist so pleas...
sunrise
i love that
my friends
know me
well enough
to remind me
to look up
at the sky
that helps me
remember
to breathe
been kinda
breathless lately
the sky was
so orange
i gasped
*this was originally a post called "orange" but i didn't feel right about the poem at the time. so here it is. complete. and...
Distraction
I need another distraction.
At a time where I'd rely on my words to help me
express and understand what I'm feeling…
my mind is empty.
Save for a decree
of three words.
No. Four.
Three shmall ones
whose weight together
carry much more thunk.
And the last is your name.
Damn.
I love the way your nam...
I finally submitted my last final. It was late. I hope I still get credit. 🙏🏾
I'm exhausted. 😂
The poems will continue to post over the next few days. I'm still writing the post about my Annual Cultural Enrichment Museum trip. There were two exhibitions but luckily I got a good few photos before my phone died. It is a *lot* though so I'll need to go through and choose the...
Danger
I’m in danger
Caught up in your current
I keep gettin’ pulled back in
I try to walk away
Leave you alone.
You release your hold…
But then you snatch me back.
When will you stop playin’
paddleball with my heart?
_____________
Moth
My brain hurts when I think of you
Why can't I...
*nervous chuckle*
So last night at 12:48am I submitted my final project (late) and at 4:30somethingam I completed all the crocheted goodies. I can finally take one deep breath.
The project - I took Creative Writing this term. It was very very necessary. I remembered how much I missed writing. Not just songs or poetry (though that's what I choose to do for my final) but writing as ...
For your love
For your support
For your patronage
For the good vibes
For being
i miss the beach.
this was from June 2020.
true story.
and i got to see & hug him yesterday. 💛
Hey. I owe y'all some posts. I've been bogged down in homework, trying to finish recovering and get my past due work completed. While also traveling. Uh.. I'm exhausted. 😅
Stay tuned for:
More clouds
1 or 2 singing vids
1 soundcloud related update
Journal related stuff
TwitchCon
Annual Museum trip
3 literary works (poems n stuffs)
1, maybe 2 cosplay posts
I tried being a vampire
But my teeth wouldn't stick
Because my mouth is
Too warm and
My teeth too wet
Need new teeth lol
idk why I was breathing like that but LOOK AT the clouds
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My aunt Donna commissioned me to do a painting for one of my uncles. He turned 50 years old last month. I couldn't post about it bc even though he doesn't frequent social media much. And... Well, I didn't give myself time to post much. 😂
Anyway, it's a strip style watercolor of him going to a ramen shop while overseas. He plays upright bass and loves ramen (& other nerd stuff) and...
YEEEEHHHHHHHHHHHH
this was from last week. Or maybe the week before? Idk. Sky was showin out tho.
And since I can post videos here now... i'll be adding more regular cloud content at the Peace level! My phone is full of these. Some with commentary and/or SINGING.
Weeee...
I was chillin in my car one evening. I tied my twists over my lip to make a moustache for a silly photo. And...then I realized: i could cosplay as Yosemite Sam.
So I did. The very next day.
Brought me joy. Hope it brings you joy too.
💛