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do you still think about it, page 3

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do you still think about it, page 2

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EDIT: i ended up changing the first 3 panels because the closure structure in them was really sloppy in multiple ways. it just wasn't as easy to tell what was happening as i wanted it to b...

november 2021

hi everyone. i have not written an update post in a couple months, although i've been posting and updating.

i think it's just slipped through my fingers, i know last month mawkish's next ACTH test was on the first, so it was a very chaotic day. yesterday, i spent like 8 hours retrieving her cushing's medication because the delivery i was supposed to get 4 days ago was delayed and then del...

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EDIT: i forgot to upload this on friday!!!!! the dark red did not look nice, so it ended up being something more neutral for the black. colors/markings have not been rendered literally in the dark, so sugar's got some odd spots, but she looked more cohesive that way.

here i...

soft-pedaled, page 15 (end)

wow, this comic is finally done! it's filled my stomach with dread for years, and now it's, in some capacity, done. i'd love to go over it at some point and clean up felix's markings, because he was redesigned halfway through.

this ended up being a separate page largely to help add some details; for this one in particular, showing izzi moving her parking placard onto the rearview mirror. ...

FaD strip: the breakup

i've been wanting to draw this one for a couple of months now. unfortunately, periods of extreme stress are known to make chronic dissociaters dissociate their personality more, and i was going through a lot of new stresses at once -- moving out on my own for the first time, having a friend who felt the irreconcilable need to "fix" my touch and sex aversion and lack of a desire for a relationsh...

patron-only stream starting

i unlocked subs-only streams on twitch after realizing they require 90 separate days of streaming from an affiliate to have that feature, and have been doing patron-only streams for a hot minute.
this image will be a notice for regular work streams. i will probably also need to come up with a copy paste for the text field...

today i will be working on soft-pedaled's lines and flats, an...

august 2021

hi everyone. perhaps you noticed i didn't update on the first. my hand has been hurting a lot after the art done in july -- it actually started hurting in june, after A LOT of requests combined with commissions to deal with my dog's vet bills and making side comics. july is when the pain became completely omnipresent and breaks or tylenol or ice or heat or all of the above weren't making it tol...

FaD strip: male privilege

hi. first of all, my hand has been hurting from the commission work on top of comic work last month. i rested it for 2 weeks, but it's still in pain, and i couldn't really rest it while moving all of my stuff to my new apartment. (it's only myself living here, by the way, so... i get to decide when i move from oklahoma, lol)
still, i felt like i was going to explode if i couldn't dr...

unfinished FaD strip: integration

here's another strip i never finished, from 2019. i really wish i had had the time to finish this one, but it was so lengthy, and the topic itself is anxiety-inducing for me -- i had a hard time finding the appropriate headspace to work on it at all. notably, there's no script, because it was just seared into my brain for a long time; i thought i would finish it before it started to fade.
th...

unfinished FaD strip: embodiment becomes the body

i'm going to upload some of the folie a dupe strips i just never had time to finish. i'd like to release myself from the burden of expecting myself to still finish them.
this particular strip was a conversation between dupe and gray where dupe prods with a certain curiosity about why beliefs form -- particularly, why statements initially taken skeptically can become genuine beliefs, why soci...

soft-pedaled, page 14

okay, that's the last page of this comic. it's a sloppy ending for a sloppy comic - eased into it with various jokes sprinkled in to kind of take the edge off. besides establishing that felix plans to apologize, it also reinforces his aversion to conflict to imply maybe this problem is not easily fixed. if nothing else, it helps ease into his compulsive appeasing behavior present center stage i...

doodle dump 11

all of these are commissions or paid work of some kind. i've had a lot of fun getting more of them done... i've struggled with commission deadlines for a while, and this kind of affirmed to me that it's mostly because of the comic deadlines taking up most of my art time -- especially without adderall to "fuel" me through overtime. felt like a boost to my confidence as an artist to know i could ...

soft-pedaled, page 13

this comic has really been unfinished for too long...
i believe the next page will be last. the last thing i want to establish in the comic is the kid at the beginning's perceived representation of felix's child-self/childhood versus felix's trauma reaction in the present. felix needs to understand that they are focusing on the fixed, unchangeable past while their actions in the present can ...

july 2021

hi everyone. i hope you're all enjoying the heat wave (TM).

you may have noticed that i posted almost nothing to patreon last month, despite not working on any comics. my dog got very sick at pretty much the beginning of the month. from an emergency room visit to an actual diagnoses, it was about $2000 -- so i took quite a few commissions. a lot of commissions. i have been working almost ...

doodle dump 10

wow. it's been a LONG time since i posted extraneous art here -- september 2020 was when i posted the last one. i'm going to split it up between personal art and art for other people in the next one so that this isn't like, a billion images.

the first chunk here was random, and the second chunk, i realized i hadn't uploaded a lot of the character work i did for leisure? it's a mix of twea...

june 2021

hi everyone. happy pride month!

my top surgery is a little under a month out and there have been no complications. most of the pain is gone, and at a month your skin has about 45% of its original strength back (95% at 6 months, the maximum it returns to its original strength pre-surgery).

i spent the month mostly making art i had on my to-do list for my stream and for commission bac...

fresh meat, page 98 (end)

well, that's it. the comic's finally over, at 3 times the length i initially estimated it would be... but still shorter than 100 pages (and drop-out).

the last 2 pages of this comic were a rapid succession of earlier locations flashed to the reader, with page 97 exhibiting multiple locations within the ward as she's sort of regurgitated out of the structure's inner workings, and page 98 s...

post-meat plans

so, i'm working on the last page of fresh meat, which means it's ending this week (hopefully)... which means that most of the content i've been steadily outputting will vanish.

as most of you are probably expecting, i will be going on a small hiatus in may due to the sort of breathlessly awaited surgery. i don't know how long i will actually need to recover, but i'm assum...

fresh meat, page 97

i wanted the hallways sequence to build a sense of anticipation and tension. the hallways would be recognizable from earlier instances of kim's movement through the ward in color and anatomy -- from the hallway that took her into the high risk wing, to the hallway she passed through for breakfast and admittance into the overflow wing on her first night, to, finally, the hallway where she heard ...

fresh meat, page 96 (FLATS)

as you can see, this page is longer than usual... so the shading will be a little bit late. i was also pretty disoriented and tired for half of this week from the vaccine, even though i wasn't necessarily running a fever.
after this are 2 more pages of the comic, and then it's over.

this page primarily slaps down sugar's optimistic argument, and bring her back to her more deeply-embedd...

april 2021

hi everyone. it's a new month.
my surgery was rescheduled, twice, and now hopefully will happen in may. while this is good news in some ways, this is a surgery i've wanted somewhat desperately for 10 years, so it mostly sucks.
why i bring it up here is because that means my hiatus isn't going to begin in the middle of april, but, probably, the beginning of may.

fresh meat has about ...

fresh meat, page 95

sugar gets a lot of talking time in this page, as this is consider the "sugar arc wrap-up scene" -- i don't know how much i have to say about it, since it's characters talking, which means a Lot of headshots, and a lot of content that kind of speaks for itself, literally.

kind of cringe, but sugar's arc originally involved a lot more emphasis that this was her Last Chance to get better be...

fresh meat, page 94

okay. there's a lot going on here, but i am fatigued, so i dunno if i will comment adequately on it.

i decided to have kim's grandmother pick her up instead of her mother or stepfather. a couple of reasons: i think that kim's parents are at work and would not want to leave to pick her up.
i wanted to establish that kim's family network is a little more robust than just a small nuclear ...

fresh meat, page 93

this page is a little longer than usual because it kind of crushed up 3 longer necessary plot points stuck in an ambiguous time territory in the story: kim needed to change outfits, be told that she was being discharged at night, and then kept waiting until the lights went out, where she was told to go to bed and wait until tomorrow.
a lot of beats are cushioned by thematic relevance and a t...

fresh meat, page 92 (flats)

this ending is so close i can taste it... what to say about this page... i'm hoping that threading this little slice development will make the sting of a relatively flat drop of carmilla's arc less noticeable. kim not snapping here, and leaving instead, should also indicate a change in the story, even if the conflict still takes place.

for the palette of the hallway, i wanted it to have t...

fresh meat, page 91 (flats)

this page was a pain for me. i just don't like carmilla's wrap-up, which i already said, so it's bleh.
this just hits a lot of beats that still need to be hit, like canonizing that these characters are gay, and that kim is bi -- although a lot of kim's reaction to sugar being gay were supposed to hint at that before. to me she reads as a character who has probably not really gotten comfortab...

march 2021

hey everyone, this update image is late because i've been very busy for the last few days. even this image i couldn't start working on until around 10 pm today.

this month is the last month before my new top surgery day (which is in the middle of april, not the beginning)... i would really like to try to finish fresh meat before that surgery, so i'm going to see what i can do.

i end...

FaD strip: epilogue

this strip is one i had the urge to draw a couple of days ago. the freedom to be spontaneous with my art means a lot to me, and unfortunately i still haven't had the energy and leniency to do this right away, but it was nice to have a sunday where i could whip it out before the urge completely died.

several factors of this comic are a reference to a much older comic from 2015 about a poig...

2/28 stream (finished)

today i'm going to be drawing a simple comic about gender and that's it. :)

https://www.twitch.tv/dupereffective/

stream started at 8:17 pm CST.
stream ended at 11:35 pm CST.