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Change 🌱

Today is brought to you by the song “I Can Change” by Lake Street Dive.

Joie comes home soon, so this is my last time staying at her lovely empty room with a view. I’ve packed up all my stuff and tucked little presents for her everywhere to discover when she gets home. I planted cheerful flowers on he...

Balloon Pops (and other surprise kinks)

These are screenshots from one of my favourite coven videos.

At the last party we threw before the pandemic we went down the rabbit hole of accidental kinks and ended up trying to pop balloons between our bodies and howling with laughter.

The 2 minute video of this discovery is like candy to my senses right now, our costumes, our closeness, our giggles, the music, the touching, th...

Thanks 🙏

A quick note of appreciation to you all for your support, especially during the pandemic.

Your patronage is a big piece of the puzzle in how I can support my family independently as my marital and financial situation changes.

I can’t tell you how much that means to me.

Conversations about starting small events with our coven this summer have begun, we still need to wait f...

Happy Pride Month

In hopes that next year we can celebrate Pride together again.

Here’s me, Kitten and Ms.O at Pride 2017.

The infamous Horse Dress I’m wearing was an item I found at the first Sapphic Slumber Party. We do a clothing swap as part of the festivities and this dress fit me like it was custom tailored. It’s so weird and cute. I love it. Such a good find. And it obviously carries ...

In the eye of the hurricane...

...it is quiet.

My entire life hangs in the balance of a few numbers and calculations. And all I can do is wait.

An exercise in mindfulness.

An exercise in patience.

An exercise in trusting the world to bring what is meant for me.

Easier said than done (breathe, vape, journal, reach out, walk the dog, breathe, vape, repeat) but I get closer every minute.

From the Vault

These are some of my favourite Instax from my personal collection.

Me and Scout at the very first Sapphic Slumber Party in 2017.

Above: The spliff-filled Beyoncé’s Lemonade fuelled moment that solidified our mutual Too Muchness. You can see it on her face, kindred spirit behaviour.

Below: Scouts first ever spanking. In a room full of babes we draped her across Ms.O and K...

🌲🔥

This is one of my favourite self portraits.

My (almost ex) husband and I, camping on the north shore of Lake Superior, full moon in the sky, joint in hand, guitar by the fireside.

It was a good night. I set up the timer on my camera and took one shot. And this was it.

There’s been a lot of hard feelings back and forth between us this past year, but I have to say, our poly...

Our Patron Saint of Getting It Done

Ms. O and a chainsaw everyone.

You’re welcome.

Hope you’re bringing this energy into today’s full moon eclipse.

I have a little story to tell you from this weekend as soon as I have a minute to catch my breath.

For now please draw strength from O’s strength.

🙌✨💙

Rope Night @ O’s

Throwback for your Sunday night. 🖤

Gloria, Heart, O, Elly & Betty (Summer 2017)

💛

I’m keeping my head up and my heart hopeful.

Tomorrow is a special day, after a really tough week.

This weekend has a few surprises, and a photoshoot too... (you guys will get the goods don’t worry!)

I hope you’re hanging in there too.

💛

Windows

I’m knee deep in paperwork and Serious Adult Things, and my mind can’t help but wander to more magical times.

Elly once told me to picture the hard parts as the scenes in a movie montage of your life that you just gotta get through. These hard days aren’t always glamorous or impressive, but when you put all those small moments together with a kickass soundtrack you see how much pr...

Can you see?

Today was the day.

Today was a day.

I got a new mattress last week but it didn’t feel right until last night when Max was beside me and I curled up against her. Companionship is something I miss so much since my marriage ended.

She was on my home grind with me today and she excelled. One kiddo was complaining about their hair so she called her mobile barber who does house ...

I kept the fire going.

This winter he went to our cabin alone. We do this sometimes. It’s one of the perks of having a cabin in the woods far away.

This winter he went to our cabin alone when the weather was -35 C. It’s usually cold in the winter but that’s dangerously cold. Our cabin is off the grid, no electricity, no running water, but it’s insulated and there’s a big beautiful wood stove that doe...

7 Things

1. Here are some candlelit photos of my ass. 🍑

2. I’ve been having some writing-related-anxiety, this feeling where I hesitate to put anything down in words. I can’t commit or find the nerve to say it out loud. It happens sometimes when I’m in the middle of something. The words usually flow once I’ve had some space from it. It’s frustrating.

3. This is an update for an...

In Bloom

Kitten, Bee, Madeleine, Peach, Ms. O and Cee will have all had their first shot by tomorrow. And more of the babes are getting theirs every day. Mine is scheduled for Monday!

It’s still a little while away, but the potential for babe brigade parties to return is starting to be REAL.

Let me tell you we shit talk often about all the great things we’re going to do. No holds barre...

Longing

There is hope in longing for something wonderful.

Elly, Kitten, O, Joie, Heart - July 2017

Happy Mama’s Day

I had tea in bed alone this morning, and then made pancakes with the kids when they woke up. They made me a very cool whale-related card (we’ve been watching the new documentary series about whales together) and we hung out together, the first day in a while where nobody had work or school.

I’ve been thinking about my own mama, and how she taught me how to love. I’ve been thinking ...

🐾

Kitten-paw appreciation post 🐱

2017

Today.

We had our first mediation session today. Just an intro to get to know the process and what to expect. I was anxious all day even though I knew nothing would be decided. My kiddo and I took a spontaneous hike in the ravine to burn off the jitters, he was anxious about a stern talk looming with his teacher. We both needed the escape. Good coping skills.

It’s a big step just starting the...

Babe Brigade

Look at these pretty maids all in a row. (And again with Kitten working those cute paws. My heart!)

I used the self-timer so I could be in some of these ones, and it snapped a few accidental shots too, like the one below.

I wanted to share this cute little behind the scenes pic of me fixing little details in the middle of shooting. Turquoise hair and fussy hands.

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Joie 🤍

My bestie Joie has been away, staying with her parents, since December. I miss her terribly!

Joie is the one who always has snacks in her purse. Not just a little trail mix or something, she will pull out a whole fucking grapefruit, peel it, and offer you a slice. She’ll pull out a Tupperware with berry crumble she made from berries she foraged from the local park. She’ll share. I ha...

(I miss these cute butts)

Sometimes I scroll through old photos and salivate thinking “was it really like this?”

And yes. Yes it was.

I remember kneeling on the hardwood to take these, and Kitten’s cute little paw killing me.

(June 2017 - Photo by Heart)

Smooch 🌸

Snuggly Sunday, watching Soprano’s with my sweet babe. (Still baffled by the whole “it’s gay to eat pussy” thing.) This week has some happy days at home with my kiddos, some good quality time with Max, and my mediation starts with my husband for our divorce. I feel relaxed and ready to handle it. Max is also putting in an offer for a place in the city! Which will make our lives easier f...

Weekend Off 💘

It’s my weekend off and my babe has been spoiling me rotten. Her goal is to keep me wet all weekend... so far she has succeeded. She checks regularly to make sure, wakes me up with her mouth, keeps me frisky and well fed. I sleep like a baby.

Right now I’m cuddled with the pup on her couch while she makes us dinner. We’re binge watching The Sopranos, it’s one of her favourites an...

Cute Feet Behind the Scenes

I miss prosecco and thigh cuffs, half naked women, the sounds of chatter and giggles.

Kitten, Ms.O and Elly - by Heart - June 2017

Body (Thoughts After Therapy)

“You resent your body,” my therapist said, like she’d just uncovered something. Who doesn’t, I wondered while I waited for her to finish.

“You do, you’re resentful of your injury, resentful at the healing you have to do, you’re resentful that your body needs rest and care and fuel, you act like those things are getting in your way,” she had a furrowed brow and quiet tone,...

Stay At Home 🌕

I would like to thank the pink full moon for the inspiration.

Kitten’s Smirk

I sent this photo to our Coven group chat the other day and it sent everyone a titter because you can FEEL the soft sapphic energy in this photo, and allllll of us know what that mischievous little smirk on Kitten’s face means...

Kitten, Ms.O, Joie & Elly

Photographed by Heart - June 2017

Flirting With People Who Are Monogamous (or “Why I Don’t Give Bartenders My Number”)

(I’ve had a few patrons ask for a follow up on the old bartender story I posted yesterday. Here it is, also from March 2015, the short version is we texted and it didn’t work out.)

Last week the bartender texted me, I was thrilled. I am wildly attracted to her, she is a babe of epic proportions. It turns out she is a lesbian, and she’s monogamous. We both agreed we were loo...

Angelic Close Up

Pierce-less nipple jewellery, something delicate and pretty to dress me up when I’m undressed. Something to make you look a little closer.