No charge next month + Apology + Ranting

Greetings friends...

I'm making this post to hit up on some things that I'd hope I wouldn't be writing a week ago, yet here I am a week or so later and still without a build to provide you all. To put it simply, I've been very blocked creatively. The script is still getting churned, but at an impossibly slow rate that I keep telling myself I can work through but I might simply be stuck.

While it might be hard to believe, it's not exactly easy to churn out 25-50 (depending on single-double spaced) pages of content each month. I've known for awhile that I've been getting closer and closer to the edge of not meeting my deadline, and I'd convinced myself I just needed a week to create something that satisfied me.

Unfortunately, that doesn't appear to be the case and I've instead been finding myself on this downward spiral of stress from falling further and further behind with writing. It would be easier if I had more opportunities to write outside of the couple of hours I get in between work and sleep I might be able to accomplish more, but sadly I'm not in any position to be quitting my day job.

It's part of the reason I'd hoped after reaching a certain goal we'd be able to find a writer with whom I could agree with to help with the workload, splitting content accordingly and keeping us moving at a steady pace. (Sadly no such writer has appeared, and the few that have expressed interest have never given me examples of their work... which tells me they weren't all that interested after all.)

So where does that leave us, well it leaves me still stressed but hoping to have the build ready for you all very soon. It also further pushes me towards the next topic I want to discuss.

You won't be getting charged for the month of July. Partially because of the late build, but also because 0.9 is very lacking in content anyway. (Hopefully giving me space to breathe and get ahead.) This is in part due to reworking our expression system as part of the overall revamping of our system. Charging you for a build that doesn't have much content in addition to still owing you a build for the previous month just didn't sit right with me. (Not having a build up in time also doesn't sit right with me, but I've already rewritten this post twice to keep from self-deprecating, so we'll be moving on.)

I know sorry isn't enough, and I fully expect many of you may choose to unsubscribe over this. My personal life is in a bit of disarray, and I've been trying to balance everything which might just be resulting in myself dropping the ball everywhere instead. I'm going to keep trying to do better and hope to fail less spectacularly going forward.

I recognize that my conduct might not be the most professional, however I've also never claimed to be a professional. I've truly no idea what I'm doing and learning a lot about the process as I go along. I'm looking forward to bringing you more content very soon, and I hope you continue sticking with us while we bring forward this story.