Updates on my life / Vent

(I wasn't really sure what to name this and i'm writting this more for my self than for anyone else lol, but i figured it'd be ok to write on my patreon.)

Been kind of a rough month lol, i haven't gotten a single commission at the time of posting this, i mean, it is what it is right, i'm trying my best but, i guess right now i feel a lot more pressure from it, before it used to be me, if i couldn't save money it was on me and for me, now i'm committed to a future i'm trying to build, i'm married, and i'll be moving out of my dad's apartment in just a few months, part of my commitment with my self and to my wife was that i should be able to reach my monthly goal of 320$ (usd) for the rest of the year, to have enough savings for the moving, to have a better bank statement for the moment we get a rented place so it's easier to find a nice place...

 I miss my wife man, she's a pilar for me and while she'll move here in january i haven't seen her since september, and in moments of stress is harder to deal when i'm alone...

It's not the end of the world, but i can't say i'm not frustrated, specially because for the past 5 months i've been able to consistently reach that goal, and now so close to the end  i just reach a wall, it's a little scary tbh, commitment is scary, mantaining a promise sometimes is hard, there's always gonna be solutions to problems outside the obvious ones, in this case, borrowed money to inflate the bank statements, moving out with less than i'd like, it's sacrifices that i'd like not to make, but that i'll do if it comes down to it.

I've been thinking of making an "emergency commissions" type of post on social media, i don't really like the idea, especially cause in the past i already did it, i don't want people to think i'm taking advantage of people's kindness, idk if that's a valid or dumb fear to have, but it does cross my mind, also the idea of having to reach out for help and then that help not comming scares the shit out of me lol, i honestly feel right now that if i can make it through what's left of this month and december i'll be good, 

As you all might or not know, i was born, raised and currently living in the capital city of Bogota, i'll be moving out to a different department  (wich is basically like a different state/provice for you north americans), to the capital of the state of Boyaca, Tunja, a small, cold and  beautiful city, starting a new, getting a half time job, i'll finally stop worrying so much about money since the price of living lowers by around 30% total, a massive difference from Bogota, i'm excited and nervous but i'm looking forward to the future, love you all and thanks to whoever reads this message fully. :)

Road to Tunja 2022!