Update

I've had time to think about what I want and I am still processing. With the aftermath that you may or may not be aware of and the stress and heartbreak it caused me, I have had to think about what I want and what will make me happy in the long run.

Retiring from Reddit was ultimately not on my terms and for that, I am upset and frankly heartbroken. Having to say goodbye to people I have admired and talked to for years and interacted with on that level made me cry. I am pretty devastated that not one but two communities were ripped away from me. But I did what I had to do to protect my safety. GWA made me a target, discord made me a target, and people that I trusted betrayed my trust, ultimately.

Along with the heartbreak of being forced to leave the community I championed and loved for nearly 6 years, and the one I formerly loved and worked hard to build and foster a friendly and safe environment, I also was dealing with the question mark of what I wanted to do next.

The thought of never getting to realize the ideas I'd been working on for here, for this Patreon, upset me. The thought of never getting to do this again, to work on my passion, upset me. Reading the DMs of people who told me that my voice helped them (and not even the audios you may be thinking but the cuddly ones) upset me. Why should I be forced to give that up? Why should that end because of the actions of a select few?

Access to me is at a minimum at the moment. I no longer have to deal with Discord drama, certain people have been banned and blocked, Reddit drama is now a thing of the past, trolls cannot come for me, threats have been removed, and people with malicious intentions are gone. I decided I can focus on what I want to do next.

If you want to still be here, I am happy to have you. This option is very low-stress for me, very low-key, and will not put me in the danger I was in previously.

If you felt the Discord benefit was the only reason you were here, you don't have to stay on Patreon, and I will understand. I felt might be the case for some anyway, so I wouldn't be surprised. I just want to clarify that while some of you felt you lost a lot, I lost a whole lot more. I think it’s important to understand exactly what I lost in all of this.

I'm still here, and I still would like to share my voice with those who say it helps them. I don't think that's fair to give up when I'm not ready and from what I'm hearing, helps so many. Thank you for your love and support. I have felt the immense love in my DMs and I really need it right now.

I am going to possibly rethink one/more of the tiers of Patreon. I am considering axing the custom level. I'll be in contact with those of you that pertains to if that is what I decide.

If you decide to leave, thank you for being here while you were. If you decide to stay, welcome to the next phase of my journey. I am glad I can still do what I love and for the people who actually appreciate it.

<3 Belle