haΩaj lesson 1: writing and pronounciation (and other updates...)

it feels like it has been way too long since i have given you guys an update on here. for the last several months i have been simlutaneously unproductive + sometimes making new things (sadness and trhä) + overwhelmed with responsibilities (such as preparing the sadness show) and often too paralyzed to work on anything. you will be happy to know though that there IS a new sadness album in the works, a 3 track release (and the first non split release since "our time is here"). as well as some Trhä things i've been working on. i have also FINALLYYYY finished making digital images for the haΩaj symbols, and in this video you can learn everything you need to know about how haΩaj writing and pronunciation works. i also demonstrate LIVE in the video how to create the images of your name suggestions, although i wasnt able to get to all of them quite yet. i'll include the remainder of the suggestions in the next haΩaj lesson which will begin to tackle grammar concepts. the video is uploaded to youtube as "unlisted" which means that only those who have the link can see the video. out of respect for everyone here who pays money for special insight and access to things i create, just don't share the link with anyone outside of patreon. the reason i upload it to youtube is because the file is so big idk if patreon will allow it and also since i like to speed up the video playback, if you find it too fast you can always change the playback speed on youtube easily.

now for music... i have some new sadness songs which are not QUITE finished, however i do have something special to share
i have a project called ⋆​｡​°​✩​✧​NINATAHEC​✧​✩​°​｡​⋆ which is a project i started last year in May. i intended it to be an anonymous msyeterious project (like trhä was) but just like all of my intended to be anonymous projects i twas discoverd that it was me, probably because of how obviously damian - like it sounds. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TgXQM9SkFPo&t=542s the first album was a cassette exclusive release, and i didnt share it on patreon befause i didnt want to spoil the mystery, but since that was already revealed i can now talk about it. "ninatahec" means "girlstars" in haΩaj (and if you watch the video i shared you can know how to pronounce it). the concept of "girl" is very personal and deeply dense and complicated for me, and it is not something i will overtly overshare or talk about because it is so personal. and of course all my music and lyrics are personal but this feels liek it needs to be kept even more held in secret, so unfortunately i cant bring myself to share the lyrics and talk about the songs , even though i really love them and they are so beautiful and i want to share them because i am proud of them. that was almost an entire year ago, but recently i have begun making more songs (for a split) and i have finished two of them, here in this google drive folder. https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1lM_IShJXngWi-A5oD4vxDn3Kslqk3Ium?usp=sharing. i plan on making more songs for this project in the future too, it's really fun

as for sadness (and trhä) im obviously very excited to show you guys what i've been working on, however i dont know if you would appreciate seeing an unfinished draft of an idea or rather wait until something is finished before i share it. let me know , because I' i think it would be fun to share my works in progress as they are happening. i also dont want ot keep leaving weeks and months of empty inactivity here, you guys deserve more. and speaking of more, if you have any requests about what i should share, i can try my best to provide it. i recently shared a snippet of a new song on instagram though, incase you havent seein it: https://www.instagram.com/p/C5KFDcmMxlO/ howver this song is becoming so much more epic now that i have more than 100 vocal layers onit