7/10/25

Hallo everynyan! Happy Thursday!

here's the stuff i painted from the last speedpaints, ill get to replying to comments soon i just havent been checking patreon notifications at all, truth is the more support ppl give me the guiltier i feel for taking so freaking long like.. its already july, i need to get season 4 out soon 😭season 4 being the last one is taking a bigger toll on me than i thought bc it feels like ive set up all these dominoes in s1 s2 s3 and im gonna knock them all down in s4, but then i get attached to the pretty dominoes and i dont wanna destroy what ive built, does that make sense??.. like i can take forever to write and rewrite as much as i want but if i dont put it into pen and paper then theres really no point right, also i dont want anyone to feel bad for me this is literally all self-induced and none of my problems are real i just need to lock in thats all .. but this anxiety is stressing me out a lot i think ive lost half of my hair already😭i dont even wanna leave the house anymore i legit feel like gollum..

I ordered some sports tape bc of friends recommendation so lets hope they work, its either that or i have to smell like bengay 24/7 and i think the fumes are getting to my head tbh ksjdafnkasjnfasjkn its so fucked guys, idk what im doing... Also i got summoned for jury duty next week so lets hope i get in so a single mother doesnt get life in prison for not paying a $200 speeding ticket or something 💔 i gotta nail that interview first though so wish me luck..!

Nothing much to yap about today bc i gotta get back to season 4 prep but i hope u guys like these stuff i drew, i havent been feeling that great about my art or my comics lately bc i had to reread season 1 2 3 to write season 4 and i wanna crawl out of my own skin bc of how fugly and childish my art looked back then, i think people said crush got buffer after season 2 but CRUSH WAS ALWAYS BUFF PLS i just finally learnt how to draw muscles after awhile😭i have no desire to redraw my webtoon ever but it really is so embarrassing and i really feel so grateful for everyone who stood by my comic when it looked like dookie shart i hope that i can repay everyone by making it looks gorjes by the end.. Anyways have a good day everynyan, thank you for your support as always and stay safe out there...! 🙏