Bacteria art speedpaint..

Song credit: Careless Whisper - Natalie Dawn

Hallo everynyan! Sorry for another speedpaint video 😭😭

I feel like I havent been that active on here bc of the webtoon and i really do apologize so much, it's just every episode has been beating my ass lately and everyone know im unc so my joints dont work like they used to before but i still feel so so bad for not updating more😭😭Speedpaints vids are usually just when I literally have no art to post but I don't want the Patreon to stay inactive for too long it's literally a stall post and I feel so ashamed everytime I do this like jesus christ.. get it together yem. I usually give myself 2 hours a day to paint whatever i want outside of cherry crush so it doesn't feel like "work" but even during those 2 hours i only paint Cherie and Crush bc i just love them so much.. so it still feels like work anyways😭😭I've been trying to paint more stars lately but everytime I paint them they just look like viruses, or bacterias, i should just embrace my bacteria art atp instead of reaching for the stars...

I don't even have time to post yaps no more bc the webtoon has just completely taken over my life as of rn, the first thing on my mind when i wake up is cherry crush and the last thing i do before i go to bed is cherry crush i just can't even afford to be distracted for even one second bc i'll lose momentum and it'll take forever to get back in the zone again 😭 even small breaks would break my concentration and I can't afford to not work on the webtoon rn, but the Patreon is the entire reason I can do cherry crush to begin with so I can't afford to neglect u guys here either it's just.. I really wish i could clone myself so bad omfg why wasn't I born with 8 arms or something i wish i was an octopus so bad. I really miss venting abt my life but back then i was just stressed out about planning the comic now im stressed out about DOING the comic it's so fucked up, I don't think I'll ever get out of this until I finish Cherry Crush. But even then I'd probably find more things to freak out about bc I'm just a naturally anxious person 😭

My biggest fear of all time is wasting people's time because I have so little time myself.. I feel like if cherry crush has taught me anything its that good times dont last forever and i should just be happy for where i am rn, im making half as much as i used to compared to last year but i'm just so glad i even got this far, the fact that I'm nearing the end of most of the stuff I'm planning is such a priviledge. Its so crazy to me that you guys are still sticking around even though I'm not as active as I used to during the hiatus and that means the world 😢😢 In my head the worst day of my life is always gonna be tomorrow and I go to sleep every night praying I get to wake up to draw Cherry Crush again for another day, like wao how lucky i am that I just get to draw cherry crush yaois for a living.. its insane that i even got this far and the more i think abt it the happier I am and the happier i an the more anxious i become that it's gonna be over before I know it so I'm really putting all of my effort toward the webtoon even if most people are just here for the porn, i hope you guys will still forgive my shortcomings and mistakes, I'm trying my best..😭😭

That's all for the yap today, I've just been feeling really existential about ChCr lately because it's the last season and the plot is getting scary and I really really hope I can wrap it up nicely 😭DON'T WORRY WE'RE NOT EVEN 1/4 DONE WITH SEASON 4 YET THERE'S LIKE A BAJILLION THINGS I NEED TO DO BEFORE I CAN END but yar.. I've just been so busy but god am I so happy to be busy doing a comic that I lauv so much.. even though cherie and crush terrorize my mind 24/7 they'll always be my favorite coworkers.. Anyways sorry for word vomitting i feel like i haven't talked to u guys in weeks (a couple days) but that's just my brain making me feel like if I don't post then I don't exist so..😭😭 Anyways, i hope u guys enjoy this speedpaint and have a good day everynyan thank you so so much for everything mwahmhwam!