DerekVasconi

DerekVasconi

Akiba Colors live (and feeling dead inside), patreon questions answered, finding a solution to this terrible time, and a scary incident at shibuya station

Added 2021-04-24 19:06:37 +0000 UTC

LINK: https://28.gigafile.nu/0624-ff3e3d4569f1c8cbe5e139ed716351c10

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As always, thanks so much for your kindness and support. It means so so so much. I really am not sure how to feel entirely about what's going on with them..... and you know who I speak of... but at the same time, that is how it is in Japan. Simple minds think simple thoughts. There are so many people here that think only in terms of black and white. There is no room for mistakes, and perfection is required at all times. It's unforgiving here. Truly, and I will never get how a country like Japan that is full of such beautiful, creative artists have the world's worst uncivilized approach to relationships and friendships that are based purely on a lack of communication and a willingness to communicate and work through problems that are EASILY solved through attempting to understand one another. Then again, most idol groups here subscribe to my theory. Do you remember what it is? If you are an idol group, your goal in life is to NOT make as much money as possible. I mean, even worst case scenario, we can't be friends (me and these people), but business can still be done. And why give that up? It's almost like people here are ALLERGIC to money. Maybe it's because most people I know here don't know what it's like to truly suffer... to sleep on park benches and have to steal food from ducks near the pond that you sleep at to try and drink dirty pond water from just to stay alive. Most people here have their mommies and daddies take care of them until they are 55 years old. Most people don't have mommies and daddies who physically and emotionally abused them to the point of near death. So... you know... it's easy to act like a 4 year old when you've never had to grow up. And Japan is full of people who live in fantasy la la land where all they have to do is run away from what's bothering them rather than deal with issues head on. I literally am only in this country because of the creative art that's here and family obligations. Despite the massively frustrating situations I run into with people here who simply cannot think past their own cultural norms, I can't escape the unbelievable power of music that I've found here, and movies, and the beauty of even the most normal woman here who probably takes forty minutes to even walk out the door because she cares so much about how she looks... to go to her 7/11 job. I mean... all the problems are worth it at this point for me because I have bigger reasons to stay than worrying about what idol staff or producers or idols think of me. And the good thing is that the idol world is massive. So I can always move to other corners of the world if necessary. Sadly though... I wish I didn't have to do that. I really miss my friend. I miss my idol children. I wish I could somehow break thru their incredible stubbornness and extreme reactionary mindsets and make them see that what I did sucked, but what they are doing is just.... it's SHOCKING. Like... how can you just DROP somebody whose been there for you forever and has done ONLY good things for you? And more importantly, is WILLING TO do whatever it takes to get back to work with them? I mean... I'm all open and ready to go... but... yeah... stubbornness and a refusal to just move past issues and understand mistakes happen and you end up with a lot of NEEDLESS pain and suffering. Shouganai.

2021-04-29 10:05:37 +0000 UTC

Hey Derek!! Thanks for another audio post and thanks for today's 15germ cheki session! It was soooo much fun and the girls are absolutely adorable. The part where I think it was Rika reenacting Rei's laugh which made her laugh harder.. it was so cute! My fiance does that to me too and I just laugh until I can't breathe lol. Thank you for introducing yet another amazing group to us!! And thank you for always telling the girls a little bit about me, like that I cosplay and stuff. Seeing them react to that always makes me giggle. I'm still very sorry about the whole situation with you-know-who (no not Voldemort). It's a loss for everyone involved, even us fans. We can still support them but I think I speak for many is that we started supporting that group because you introduced them to us. Supporting them behind your back just feels.. iffy. Anyway I hope you're getting some good sleep and that we'll have tons of fun at tomorrow's Miho cheki session!! Lots of love as always, Romy(-chan.)

2021-04-26 16:53:25 +0000 UTC

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