Update-- Please Read Carefully ❤️
Added 2023-11-20 09:35:27 +0000 UTCJust a few years ago, I would have been unable to write this post. My OCD would have told me that I was a horrible person. That I was a failure. That I was letting everyone down. Now, I'm in a better place. I'm able to write this message, but I'm still struggling, guys.
I genuinely wanted to believe that I could do this-- be a mom, a wife, teach 40 hours a week, and make Patreon content on the weekends...all while acclimating to a new country. As it turns out, though, I'm not able to do it. At least not right now.
You've probably noticed I've been struggling to make content. Some of it has been mental and physical exhaustion. Some of it has been technology and power issues. Some of it has just been timing. You guys deserve only the best, so I'm letting you know that I can't give you that at the moment.
I need some time. I don't know how much. And I totally understand if this means that I lose all of my beautiful patrons. You all are wonderful, and I am so thankful to have had your support. But you are not obligated to wait around for me.
I'm not deleting the page. So if you just got here, by all means feel free to stay and binge the content. And I may be back one day. It's just uncertain at the moment. Right now, I just know I need time.
I love you all so very much. You have changed my life in more ways than you know. I'm fighting the urge to apologize to you all because I know you'll just tell me not to 😭😭😭 You guys are the best. Thank you from the bottom of my heart ❤️❤️❤️
Comments
so glad to see you still have your content on patreon!!! i thought i would never see your videos again!!! please don't feel bad, i hope you get to rest more and feel better now. i just wanted to say you make me feel the same way about poetry that i did at 11 in middle school literature classes and for that i am forever grateful 💜💜💜
Pırıl Başer
2024-07-26 20:30:13 +0000 UTCyou are greatly missed around here miss KP :’) you would absolutely love to breakdown the new tswift album. hope you are now feeling better<3
libe
2024-07-14 08:35:33 +0000 UTCWe love you and miss you KP! <3 Hope one day you come back and make our lives less miserable and more poetic? <3 Wishing you all the best and still thinking of you regularly and how you've inspired me to study English literature! <3 I'll always look up to you and your analytical skills! <3
Paweł Schie
2024-07-13 19:29:31 +0000 UTCHi. I just joined your patreon today. I saw your folklore breakdowns back when you posted them and it made me love the album. I still listen to it weekly in its entirety when I'm working (wfh) and am always thinking of things you said when I hear certain lines. You changed the way I listen to music. I'm always googling and making sure that I truly understand what's being conveyed because of you.. I've been so confused because I've been trying to find your videos to watch back and hoping you did the new Taylor album. Your YouTube page pops up but there's no videos. After some more digging I found in a reddit thread that you deleted them but your patreon is still up (I read your latest post before I joined). Taking care of yourself is always first and foremost. Just want to let you know that I'm still thinking about you and your videos years later and want to thank you for your impact. You're truly amazing! If you decide to come back one day, I'll be waiting. Just make sure that you do it for you and have fun! Don't feel pressured to post whole albums or feel like you need to deliver content for your followers. If your feeling like there's a specific song you wanna talk about and that it, then that's ok. No pressure! We're happy with whatever makes you happy. I know the mental struggle of posting on social media. The doubt and over analyzing that comes along with it. Just know there's a lot of ppl who love you, your content and you've helped a lot of people listen to music fully ❤️
Gianni Marino
2024-05-08 02:10:36 +0000 UTCI just joined your Patreon because I was thinking of your videos from 2021 when you analyzed Folklore & Evermore Taylor Swift songs. They really helped me appreciate lyrics more than I ever had. I hope you find a place and space in which you can return to do videos and post surprise content for fun! Till then, thank you for your fun, approachable videos. :)
Stacy Gee
2024-03-14 20:22:03 +0000 UTCHey! I have been watching your videos for a while now and its okay; take the time all you need! I can say that OCD is a hell of a ride, coming from my experience and you are not alone in that :]. OCD does tell me that I am a horrible person too and it would make me constantly look up on the internet if I was a bad person, which puts me in a big rabbit hole. Take care, sending good vibes 💓 we will be here when you are ready to come back.
MrMallard
2024-03-09 17:02:16 +0000 UTCHi! I'm new around here, well in a sense... I've been subscribed to your youtube channel for years now. The other day I was on a swiftie facebook group where someone was asking to discuss cowboy like me. I knew the exact video to send them... only to find that you had disappeared! Please don't feel like you're letting anybody down by taking a much needed break. When i saw that your channel had no content, I was not upset or angry.. i was concerned about you! where had mother gone?! Thank you for all the content you've made and for helping me stretch my brain. Thank you for the update. I'm glad I know that you're safe and resting. I know what content burnout is like and it is TERRIBLE. i miss u, have a wonderful and fulfilling life. Good luck with your acting!
Carolina
2024-02-14 22:50:56 +0000 UTCHope things get better bestie Don't worry take all the time you need Sending love and good vibes
mohd m
2023-12-30 20:33:28 +0000 UTCI hope you get well soon we will always be here whenever you feel like your ready , take all the time you need, and focus n yourself we will all be here to support you better to take time for yourself before this escalates and you might of felt more burnt out, well done for trusting yourself and your gut you will get through it all eventually but your core audience will always be here . It's better to hear the canary in the coal mine first than let things explode wishing you all the best
scarlett india swallow
2023-11-21 13:17:10 +0000 UTCTake your time and focus on yourself and your family. We will still be here if and when you are ready to come back. 💕💕💕
Jakoby Taylor
2023-11-20 14:58:34 +0000 UTCHey KP, I also have OCD and the first video I saw you mention you having it, I felt so seen, so heard, and so much less alone. That being said - I know how hard this was for you to write. Thank you for your honesty. Take care of yourself and your family. We’ll be here if you’re ever ready to return ❤️
Jessica
2023-11-20 14:51:50 +0000 UTCHey KP, TAKE all the time you need. Truly, it's so important to prioritize things that nourish your life in ALL ways. That's not to say this patreon doesn't, but let's be real, asking for what you need is sometimes scary. I think in this group of people you'll find unwavering support in that search for solace. I have enjoyed every bit of content you've made along the way but mostly the tools you have helped forge in the heart of this poet are the real gift. I will continue to donate my monthly pledge so long at its accepted. Please take care yourself KP, you've come so far. 🩵
Moriah
2023-11-20 12:02:01 +0000 UTCTeacher, I’m so grateful for having know you on this big wide internet. Thank you for the classes and for teaching us new things (especially us who don’t have English as a first language) and overall having fun with us with music, this media we all love. I truly hope you get better soon — in the time that you need, for YOU, not for us — and I applaud your courage for speaking about these matters. I am relieved that you got to know yourself enough to respect your limits and take care of yourself. Please rest 💛 Get well soon, we love you!
oifogs
2023-11-20 12:01:27 +0000 UTC
