Sneak peek
Added 2025-09-21 23:33:03 +0000 UTCIf someone like Percy could find love, what does it say that you can't?
«Imre» Like always these days, you think of Imre. Would you say you love him? You've never really thought about that word associated with him. It feels like it doesn't fit. It seems too much, too little and inaccurate. It's hard to know something you've never felt. He makes your body heat up. He occupies your thoughts. You want to know everything about him. You want to see him all the time. To burrow into his body and lay there in between his guts. You want to shake him until her reveals himself to you, only you.»
«Nia» Since you were four, Nia has never left your mind. If you were asked if you love her, you would say of course. She's your best friend. How couldn't you? But you never really thought about what that meant. Love. Love and Nia. It means something different than it did when you were just friends. When you were friends you didn't want to kiss her until her lips swelled, dig your fingers into her smooth skin, feel her heartbeat race along yours. You know so much about her but you can never get enough. You want to get to know her for the rest of your life.»
«Lorcan» It seems so strange that for nearly a decade the only thoughts you had of Lorcan were of fury. You recall the words you said in your mind and they seem to foreign now. Who was that $name that hated him? Who was that Lorcan who hated you? When you think of him now you think of how he picks his nails when he's bored, how his smile makes him look twelve, how frizzy his hair gets when it's dryed. You like tracing the blue veins up his arms.»
«else» But you know you've never felt it. You look into the eyes of strangers and there's no spark, no click, no lightening bolt that makes your insides churn. It sounds horrible anyway, who wants to feel sick? Who wants to stop being themselves to become part of another? You don't want to be a lovestruck zombie. You wanna be awake.»
