It's been rough. But I'm Back.

Hello everyone. I want to start this post with a giant apology. I have been inexcusably silent on here. The content has come to a complete stop. If any of you follow me on x, then you'll fully understand why. For those who aren't in the loop, here's a summary.

My dad back in 2021 suffered a pancreatic attack brought on by pancreatitis. He was rushed to the nearest hospital. This hospital that I cannot for legal reasons disclose the name of, committed multiple acts of malpractice that left my dads entire digestive tract in a necrotic state. For 3 and a half years, he suffered extreme complications from short gut syndrome. And was kept alive by the doctors of another hospital in Boston, and his family.

On July 23rd at 6:30pm, he passed away due to his increasing health complications, surrounded by his lived ones, including myself.

I watched my dad die a very unsettling death. As well as suffered the losses of multiple family members whom i was very close with over the past few years, as well as 2 more this year, 3 including my dad.

Needless to say, art commissions and lewd art have NOT been on my mind. I had to stay away and take a hiatus due to everything going on. My family and I, even when I was working on commissions prior to my hiatus, were constantly taking care of dad. My family was essentially his nursing staff. He would frequently fall and we'd have to catch him. We would have to give him multiple injections, medications, infusions via TPN Machine, this list doesn't stop.

I'm aiming to start getting back to the grind starting today. I don't have a precise todo list yet but these are my main goals are as far as ART goes, not counting my new game streams on twitch.

1. Stream and complete owed commissions regularly every week

2. Work on exclusive content for patrons and publish these works on an app that you guys can access easily (patreons new tos means my art may not survive long on here, this is my workaround)

3. Work on a side comic project under a different alias, this will be revealed more later down the line. More details on my discord.

I also imagine there will be a great deal of people wanting refunds for their extensive waits. I can try to work with you, but refunds are just not entirely realistic for me at this point in time. I'm essentially now the "proud owner" of a house. My family pools together what little money we make to pay for a mortgage my dad was paying. I'm not asking for sympathies or pardons, but some understanding. I've Been unable to work due to my dad falling ill, I've made mistakes in the past that lead me to a large backlog, and now my entire world has been taken from me. The absolute most I can do, is push myself to finish every single commission for those still willing to wait. I've promised so many people, including my own family, that I'd give it my maximum effort.

I had started a list of owed work with a moderator of my discord. Due to recent events, I've somewhat lost track of this list. It's backed up in multiple places, I just need to actually look for it, and get some more help in keeping it up to date. I aim to very soon have a definitive LIST, and when every commission on that list is done, I can truly be DONE, and move on with making more art for people without so much guilt on my back. Thank you to each and everyone who has been continuously supporting me, I still question if I deserve so much kindness, but I will forever be grateful for it.

Here's a link to my discord, the Penken Station, I will be hosting an art stream there today at 2pm EST: https://discord.gg/WC4vjfvX