Academy Arcanist Release! + My Apologies [8/23/2022]

Hello peeps!

This is more of a personal post.

Firstly, I received the books for Academy Arcanist today and I'm mailing them out in just a few short minutes  (once I'm done here). I hope you're all excited for the release!

And please consider leaving a review - every little bit helps with the new releases. <3

Secondly, I suffer from some pretty bad anxiety and depression issues. I think most people here are aware, but I had a rough childhood. I grew up very poor, lived in a car for a bit, a hotel for a bit, and a rundown farm with all my cousins and aunts and uncles for a bit.

My father died when I was 4, and after that, I didn't really have a lot of security in my life. I was nervous a lot, always fearing people and places would just disappear out of my life.

I have a lot of nightmares. I keep thinking I'm going to die, or other people in my life will die, and it's hard sometimes to stop thinking about really depressing subject matter.

John and I still haven't had a child, and I'm afraid we might not be able to.

THIS SHOULD BE A HAPPY DAY! The release is going well, and some people have reached out to say they enjoy the book, and everything is looking up! But I am plagued by doubts and stresses that most people would consider "phantom" or "silly."

I apologize. I wanted to have chapters of Mimic Arcanist up today (as a thank you to everyone) along with 4 more chapters of Grandmaster (to get through the scene at Deadman's Bluff) but I haven't been able to write them. When I'm depressed, it seeps into my writing. I don't want the books to feel dour, if that makes any sense.

I am writing! Just slowly. I'm hoping my anxieties shake off. This week will have more news/posters/chapters/and audio samples.

Someone auditioned to do the voice of the apoch dragon because he loves my series! He's a professional VO and the sample he sent me was amazing. I'll upload it after I finish this, so you all can hear it.

Anyway, I just wanted to say (1) Thank you for all the support! And (2) Sorry I get mired in depression. I feel like I'm letting people down when I don't work as fast I would like. Please know, I want to get you all content that is both high quality and delivered at a reasonable rate.

You guys are the best. I hope your week is going well!

Shami