A statement

 Thank you for all your support throughout the past two years. Yesterday night, I had a conversation with someone with who I haven't talked to in ages, a close friend of other youtubers like myself. And he put it the best when he said, that I have become so blinded by this crusade I am on, that through it I have managed to insult and back stab people who were on my side or at least didn't carry ill intentions towards me. That is what I meant when I said that I had turned into a monster, I have allowed myself to be blinded by rage and took things too personal whilst descending into a resentful spiral. I believe the root cause of all for this can not only be found 2 months ago, but possibly started around a year ago when I grew beyond the 50 000 subscriber mark.   I do not know if I will return to Youtube, for now I will be watching my old videos to pin point where things may have started going wrong. And of course, I will be more focused on my private life. As patreons you still have access to the patreon server which I will keep up, and if you have any suggestions I will be happy to listen. Concerning the Drama all around this, it mainly revolves around a server on discord that I created, called "The task Force". The intention behind it was to bring together youtubers with academics. Within that server we created a category titled "People of Interest" in which we posted links to videos by alt-righters, as well as archive links of their tweets and once the server started leaking, some people immediately claimed that it was a server dedicated to doxxing people in the alt-right. I will simply repeat what I have said before, we didn't dox people on this server. As long as it was up and running, we used this server for what it was intended for. And that was to bring various academics from biology, chemistry and other sciences such as Psychology and Anthropology together with youtubers to work on videos debunking alt-right pseudo-science, and a simple reading through the leaks from this server, would have confirmed that to anyone. Another point of contention is that I was contacted by a New York Times journalist last week, and somehow people have got it into their heads that this was me on some weird conspiracy with the "horrible mainstream media" the reality of the matter is that the journalist was more interested in the scientists I worked with, especially ChemSavant, she wanted statements from those academics and wanted me to show her alt-right videos about biology. After all, what many seem to have ignored, she is a science correspondent or at least mainly writes about issues relating to science. However, over the course of the accusations being levied, something was unearthed that I had been involved in, before I had even opened the Task Force Server. About 3 months ago, when watching videos by Coach Red Pill, I found that he had linked his real name within the description of his first videos. I googled his name and immediately found that he was apparently involved in a scam and attempted blackmail of an economist in 2013, as well as other possible scams and what initially garnered my interest was that I believe he is lying about being falsely accused of rape. After mulling over if I should make a video on this or not, I decided to contact the_guardian002, because he had been instrumental in exposing the candid thing, and ask him his opinion on this matter. He suggested to take it from here and proceeded to gradually leak it to the internet, with the intention of making people aware of the fact that this guy is a fraud.   I will insist that we have done nothing wrong on the Task Force Server, but I will take responsibility for gathering information on Coach Red Pills frauds and scams and handing that information over to the_guardian002. I have to underline that Task Force server were not involved in what I and the_guardian002 have done concerning Coach Red Pill. That was a project done separately and if you hold any task force server members to account for that, you would be dishonest. In the end, I would like to thank you for your support over the years and if there is some advice i can give you, then it is to not take things on the internet too personal.   
 As for you my dear patreons, I am sincerely sorry if any of my actions have offended you, I am greatfull for your support through all these years. And eventhough I will be removing myself from the public sphere for the time being, you will still be able to contact me and talk with me through the patreon discord server.