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The State of Things

Hello there, smut believers.
A draft to this post has been seating on my screen for weeks now and the more I stared at it, the harder it got to finish writing it and posting it on my feed.

I am terribly sorry for the silence over these last couple months.
My mind had been wondering in a very dark place, and the harder I tried to push myself to work on fun, smutty comics, the worst the stories I tried to finish seemed to become.

The problem with bipolar disorder is that we have this pendulum of periods, where I spend weeks/months being super prolific, feeling highly-excited an passionate about the comics work, and then the brain chemistry changes, and a season of moody, self-doubting behavior takes over, making it extremely challenging to keep the workflow of comics going.

It also doesn't help that I'm not as young as I was 15 years ago, when I started doing these comics.

Just to recap, here's how things went more recently:
I had this high-energy period at the end of last year, releasing 7 comics in ~2 months, followed by a more starved period that lasted till March. Then I regained some traction and released 9 more comics until June, when I had to take a hiatus for a family meeting trip. When I got back, the burnout settled in and I was anchored by the weight of my own expectations.

I know should've kept the comms open, but instead I kept telling myself that I was gonna post something when I had a polished comic to release, and days became weeks, and now a couple of months have passed and the longer I waited, the harder it got to talk to you guys again.

I don't mean this as an excuse for my silence, but more of an explanation of what's been going on. You have every right to feel frustrated or worried, and that's entirely on me.

The silver-lining is I am currently feeling my brain chemistry starting to shift again, so that usually means I'll be more creative soon (at least that's how it normally works for my condition).

Ok, so... what does that mean for Tracyverse?
What should you expect in the near future?

Regarding the comics that should've come out in July, they're still a bit behind on the work.
They will be sent to all patrons that signed from July onward, and I believe I'll still need a month or so to have them ready for release.

About the other comics in the pipeline, most of them have the artwork finished or are in an advanced state of development.

There are at more than 12 unnanounced comics in production right now, along with the 4 previously announced stories that are still wips from earlier terms.

I did manage to keep some form of comms open with the artists, so at least that part of production wasn't impacted by my mental health.

Anyways, tl/dr:

- I screwed the pooch big time, ghosting you all. I apologize for that, I'll do better in the future. You deserve better. Much better.
- Bipolar disorder is a bitch and I hope science does its thing faster so we can have less interruptions in the services of Tracyverse comics.
- I'm not exactly super-okay right now, but I feel better than I was the last weeks.
- I hope to release the 2 comics I'm due before the end of October.
- Tomorrow (Monday, Sep 22nd) I'll send all messages and forms for the current term, so keep an eye on your DM inbox.

I still do love working on the comics, and it's the shittiest thing to feel so blocked and poisoned that I can't move the work forward. But I will figure it all out, I promise!

Tracyverse has released more than 230 comics to date.
That's objectively quite impressive by any standards and I don't want to taint the significance of that by betraying your trust ever again!

Thank you for your amazing patience with all my clusterfuckness.
I'm still around, and hope to be in full-thrust pretty soon.

May you all have a great week.
Kindly,
-Tracy.

Comments

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Allen Jauregui

I cannot believe I just saw this! So much love to you Tracy. You are incredible, and no delays or periods where you need to support yourself will ever change that.

Jays

you do amazing work but the only thing you really have is your health, take the time you need then get back in the game whe your ready, also great win with the transparency its hard to do but your doing it well

TOKENAVENGER

Take Your Time. Your Physical and Mental is Important. We can wait longer because you always make great comics for us to enjoy. Thank you for creating these amazing comics.

Hector Jaco

thanks for your transparency and for taking care of yourself

Burlesxe

It's fine. Take your time and take care of yourself.

Elementalist384


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