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Hypnovember 2024 Week 3 - Checkpoint

Added 2024-11-23 17:36:17 +0000 UTC

Late with this one due to some family shit that's been going on - nothing that overly affects me, but tl;dr: my sister (who I live with, along with my parents) was hospitalized this week for a day, and released safe and sound BUT has since developed a nasty stomach bug. I've been playing nurse, which I am good at, but hate... so tbh a lot of my mental energy this week disappeared into that whole like, void.

As a result, I've only tranced 2-3 times this week, and I didn't even write a ton either. Definitely got a lot less done in both domains than I wanted to, and I kinda beat myself up for it at first; I'm as prone to that as anyone, if that's not clear by now.

So, as warned in the Community Chat, I said I'd instead take this week as a bit of an opportunity to talk (again? sort of) about consistency/inconsistency and how they play into hypnotic change... but don't worry. If, like me, you've had a bit of a shit time either hypnotically/in general lately, this isn't going to make you feel worse about missing days of files. It happens to everyone, and in the long run, it's not a death knell to change. So, if you'll permit me to put my little blog writer hat on for a minute...

Consistency vs. Inconsistency in hypnosis; is it really a big deal? How big is it???

Practice makes perfect. Practice makes progress. Excellence is not an act, but a habit. We are what we (repeatedly) do.

All clichés I'm guilty of using, and all ones I stand behind to some extent; practice and repetition are necessary for picking up virtually every skill, and hypnosis is no different. Even putting the skill of trance aside, in the context of transformative change, you are attempting to gain the "skill" of feeling or behaving in a way you currently don't. The "skill" of being... a himbo. A pup. Or just some vague, better self you're aiming towards; which is all awesome, and all takes time/repetition.

As you are all well aware, hypnosis is not a magic spell that will enchant/transform you from "Who You Are" -> "Who You Wanna Be" all by itself, obviously. IMO, hypnosis has two main roles in the change process; it acts as a bit of motivation enhancement, either providing the spark that sets a new fire alight in you, or just gives some fuel to feed an already existing flame... or both, if the file's good and resonates with you! Then, of course, it also serves as a space to rehearse a new headspace, or even just a new way of thinking that you want to carry with you into the waking world.

Repeatedly engaging in hypnosis allows these effects to build strength. A single conversation can be enough to set off a domino effect that leads to some new realization or epiphany in you - many of us have had an experience like that in our lives, some important discussion or realization that changed our view of things forever. But more often than not, inner change is a result that accumulates from many slower, smaller pressures. Conversations with trusted peers, reflection on our core drivers, the simple attrition of life that naturally changes our views... some of those processes are unconscious, so we forget how long it really took for them to build that new opinion/habit/worldview. But when we're consciously pursuing change, as in hypnosis, we are often acutely aware of how long it's taking us to get there, and want to speed it up.

Repetition is really the only lever you can control that might speed things up - which is why I preach it. We all want to get somewhere, and we all want to get there as quickly as we reasonably/sustainably can. Inconsistency, on the flip side, will slow you down because... well, to return to that previous metaphor, if you don't keep adding wood to the fire, it's going to get weaker. Eventually it'll blaze so high it kinda tends to itself, the way you default live your life will fuel it; but as a new, baby uwuwuwu flame... yeah, it takes some nurturing. It's still not the biggest deal to miss days, or even weeks. I've taken months off trancing at a time and returned, anxious about whether I'd still be able to trance, and found that I've had very immediate/rapid hypnotic breakthroughs when I do; including my most recent one this summer where I've suddenly become hyperresponsive as a subject, lol, after not trancing through most of spring. (If you hit a plateau, a "break" can often help you get past it after you return. It's a little like one of those Hot Wheels cars you need to rev backwards and then release so they shoot ahead lol.)

BUT. Consistency helps a lot when we're trying to just, get a foothold with some change... but life inevitably throws a spanner in those works sometimes. Though we may always want to be diligent/committed/consistent, circumstances beyond our control drag us off our planned path... or sometimes, circumstances that feel like they are under our control, like fatigue... or busyness... or, when we pause to ask ourselves what's going on, it may just be that we're not prioritizing it as we want to be.

Ultimately, while this is a hokey end to the piece (I'm a hokey guy), all we can do when such a problem arises is to... accept it. Stand strong. If you can't trance for a while because you're anxious, or you haven't been sleeping, or someone's sick/injured, or because you just keep forgetting to do it and you're getting real pissed off at yourself for that - tough as it sounds, first thing is to just work on accepting that obsctacle. Tolerate it a little bit more, feel + process whatever angst you feel towards it. This is the first step to releasing it, and release is increeedibly important to overcoming. You're never going to get SO MAD at something that it just disappears; and often times, that emotional resistance will only keep you stuck longer.

Radical acceptance is a buzzy term nowadays, but its a very powerful concept from Buddhism that I think applies perfectly to all the issues I've raised here... and even smaller issues, like struggling to go deep enough when you DO get around to trancing. I've covered this in files before, but radically accepting your trance as it is, allowing it to unfold moment by moment instead of watching like a hawk and injecting further frustration/fury/fix-it mentality will only improve its quality, and enable you to reach the depths you long for. (If you've never heard of this concept, Google it; Tara Brach, the writer of the book "Radical Acceptance", also has some great meditations available about it.)

But again, outside of how resistance/obsctacles affect the literal trance experience... radical acceptance is useful in helping us see that it's OK if sometimes, we are knocked off the path we choose for ourselves; because it's not undoing your progress, really. It's more like being shunted between parallel lines. Here's a shitty Paint diagram to show that.

Of course it sucks to have been going from A->B, and then have life come along and knock you onto the C->D path. But you're not gonna be there forever; when you've dealt with the obstacle in your way, you can decide to return to the first path and continue that journey! And as I described earlier, sometimes you discover you can make new breakthroughs as a result of that pause-reassess-return sequence. You don't go back to the start of your first path - you'll either pick back up where you were, or find you're a little bit ahead of even that.

The tricky part is how we deal with the obstacle that threw us off the path, or that is now keeping us away from it. If it's something concrete/short-term, then sometimes the answer is just "waiting it out". If, like me, you've had a shitty time trancing this week due to external factors that you KNOW will soon resolve... that sucks, but it'll be over soon and then you can recommit to your goals. 🤷‍♂️ A few missed days won't delay you much.

But if they're longer-term/more abstract barriers, unfortunately, you're gonna have to sit and reflect on how you can either mitigate their impact OR remove them entirely. There's no universal hint here, and it's not something I can cover in the scope of this post - but the same principle applies, and the same core message of don't beat yourself up when you get derailed still applies. Derailing happens to everyone; what proves that you ARE committing, that you ARE trying your best to stick with a process, is taking the active choice to return to the original path when you can... instead of wallowing in the misery of having been knocked off course to begin with.

ANYWAY.

That all being said.

Takes off blog-writer hat

As a Tist, here's what I did for Week #3:

Wrote 2 scripts - longer pieces, both very good IMO. One is a narcissism/superiority file, and the other is an alpha muscle type beat.
Produced and delivered 2 commissions, to J & A. Both will feature on the Patreon someday!
Made myself a really pretty table of the work to come, which was a fabulous way to procrastinate; but really, look at itttt. Optimistic, but I'm planning to have pretty much ALL these ticked off by the end of next week. I have 2 files/2 loops left to write, and I can start recording/producing in between and hopefully then be ready to prepare them for Patreon release too! Some hints/spoilers ahead for the subjects of files in the pipeline... trying to keep a mix of sfw, muscle/jock, pup, sub/dom, etc. content all coming at a steady enough rate.

As a Subject, here's what I did for Week #3 (prepare to be underwhelmed):

In order, the files I tranced to this week were...

Nov 15th

Muscle Boy 1.0 by Hyphyphurray (Josh Hypno if you're nasty)

I'm not describing this again, I did so in Week 1 - this is one of my default "I wanna trance and don't know what to" picks, but I can't say it hasn't been working for me. For the first time in my life, I've been working out consistently. And I do credit some of this to the general motivation-stockpile of all my jock conditioning lol. A few months ago, it really just kicked into high gear and I NEEDED to change; which is as sudden as it can be. Sometimes, you feel nothing until you feel everything, you know?

Nov 17th
An upcoming "Bro" archetype release by Avis Sapiens - not out yet, so can't link it!

Really good time. I tried and failed to drop to this on the 16th due to stress/anxiety, so had to go back for a second go. It's a very somatic file, really focused on the body/its sensations which isn't something I'm particularly talented at as a subject, but still very erotic and I'm interested in its potential application as a long-term conditioning piece... look forward to it if you're one of his Patrons. 👀

Nov 20th

Dogs Don't Mind by Ashdoge

An anti-anxiety file I think??? I dropped deep enough, and it's been long enough, that I only very vaguely recall the file's actual contents but, fabulous production/voicework/trigger work as always, and I did find it verrrry chill which I needed on a week like this.