JCKun

Update 08/25/2020 - Second Lockdown and Coping Better

Added 2020-08-25 13:22:39 +0000 UTC

So for those unaware, my neck of the woods is on its second lockdown. It is not week 2 and I'm holding up alright. Been getting more sleep, eating better, taking necessary remedies and medication, and keeping up with self-care.

My mom continues to be pain in my side. She's been obsessed with finishing her new kitchen and other stuff around the house. I do what I can to help, but she still owes me over $3,000 and sometimes she has the audacity to ask me to buy a new stove. So you can see why I am so agitated and resentful of her at the moment. I can go on and on about how my mother is a vapid, greedy, overly controlling, passive aggressive, mentally and emotionally abusive...but I rather not. I'm taking other people's advice and not giving her what she wants. I'm only helping with construction because dad needs help the most.

If I wasn't for my meds, teas, oils, pokemon games, comedy shows, my ability to laugh at Right-Wing idiots, like anti-maskers and lockdown protesters, exercising mental/emotional control and not tolerate abusive behavior...I would have exploded by now. But thankfully I have not. I can definitely say I am more stable than I was a few weeks ago.

These lockdowns and the Pandemic in general has put a strain on all of us emotionally and mentally, I guess I was due to crack at some point. I know my situation is nowhere near as bad as others, but I'm so thankful for everyone supporting me right now. It really means alot.

Hopefully by next month I should be ready to come back and I have a lot of new ideas. This month has given me time to come up with new projects.

Thanks again for your patience and support guys.

Please stay safe and love you all!