SamuZai
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self care/small changes & new (18+) tier content

Hi loves,

Your continued love, support, and kindness have been nothing short of life-changing. Truly, I mean that with every fiber of my being. You’ve lifted me through some of the darkest and most uncertain times, and for that—I will be forever grateful. Please know that I have no intention of leaving this platform. I love this community, and I love creating for you.

That said, the last few weeks have been incredibly difficult. As many of you know, I was recently hospitalized, and I haven’t quite bounced back the way I had hoped. I will get there, I believe that with my whole heart—but it’s taking longer than expected. I’ve realized that pushing myself beyond my limits only delays healing and compromises the quality of the content I work so hard to create for you.

Refund Info:

If you haven’t received your video by June 28th, please don’t hesitate to message me. I will absolutely refund you—no questions asked. The same applies to those who may have joined a livestream-based tier. For now, I am hitting pause on live streams. They’re not gone forever, but they do need to take a break so I can listen to my body and allow it to heal.

Tier Adjustment (Temporarily):

The $3 tier, which usually includes 6 videos per month, will be reduced to 5 videos per month for now. As soon as my mental and physical strength returns, I’ll happily return to our regular programming. If this change disappoints you, I understand and I honor those feelings. This transparency is not just for you—it’s also for me. I’ve resisted being honest about the toll my chronic illness takes, and I owe you more than that.

A Note on Transparency:

I’m almost 26 years old, and I’ve struggled deeply with the reality that my health isn’t where I want it to be. Saying that out loud—especially when I pride myself on showing up for you—is painful. But I’m learning that honesty is more powerful than pushing through pain. I’m done pretending I’m okay when I’m not. Thank you for giving me the grace to be real.

Introducing a New Tier – “Spicy Loves” (18+):

As vulnerable as this makes me, I want to share something new. I’ll be launching a new tier called “Spicy Loves”, which will feature lingerie or bikini photos, and live ASMR in lingerie or swimwear. There will be no nudity—just a little more playful, sensual content that stays true to who I am. You must be 18+ to join.

This decision wasn’t easy. I’ve cried for days, terrified that I’ll lose some of you or be judged. But the reality is: I’m losing my health insurance next month when I turn 26. My heart medications alone are hundreds of dollars. Add in my infusions, specialist visits, rent, and basic life essentials—and it becomes overwhelming.

Many of you have kindly suggested a GoFundMe. But this isn’t a one-time hurdle. This is an ongoing, exhausting reality. I’m doing everything I can to create sustainably while protecting my health.

If you feel aligned or inclined to support this new tier, it will be available soon—within the day. Everyone who joins “Spicy Loves” will also receive access to all regular Patreon videos and content, just like the other tiers.

To Close:

I’m trying my best. I’m facing a move with no clear destination, and a house that isn’t packed because I’ve been too sick to function. I wish there were a magic answer, and maybe you do too. But until then—I show up with honesty, love, and humility.

If this chapter no longer aligns with your needs, I respect that entirely. No hard feelings. But if you’re staying—I promise I’ll keep giving you everything I can, when I can, as truthfully and beautifully as I’m able.

You are my family here. And I never want to disappoint my family.

With all my love, gratitude, and light.

Xoxo,

Maddie

Comments

We will support you no matter what 🫂 absolutely no judgement here friend!

Tala

We love you so much, Maddie. Not only do you give so much peace with your context, you give yourself and hold space for so many people who are suffering, especially now. But if youre struggling even more with your health, we’ll happily stand with you and support you through this, as you’ve supported us through so much. Praying and rooting for you~

Alex


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