godqueengiantess

Rough Edits, Patreon, Grad School, Content, Future

Added 2024-08-27 15:07:57 +0000 UTC

Hey everyone,

A few months ago I made a goal to finish the Cali Logan and Lauren Ashlyn clips by the end of summer. With my workload at school, it was ambitious but still felt realistic. However, as the weeks passed, I grew increasingly frustrated with my progress (or lack thereof) on the Cali Logan clip. Rather than simply giving up and placing it firmly within the space where all b-sides go to die, I resisted the urge and kept pushing along. After all, who wants to give up on a clip with a legend like Cali, you know? Because of this, I wasted a ton of time trying to make the clip work. As of now, I am still feeling bad about it, but I did manage to complete a rough timeline edit. Since I do not have anything left to edit after these two clips, I think I was worried that my potential last clip (for a while or forever) was one I would not be proud of.

Currently, this is what needs to be done regarding both clips:

CALI

Visual
- Weird Psychedelic Effect
- Shakes
- Title Cards, Etc.
Audio
- Tiny Voices
- Booms
- Soundtrack

Visuals
- Color Grading
- Light/Subtle Bag Shaking
- Title Cards, Etc.
Audio FX
- Tiny Voices
- Popcorn Rumbling
- "Soundtrack" Room Audio (Non-Music)

Beyond this, as many of you probably know, Patreon has been cracking down on a lot of creators lately, and part of me worries that one day I will wake up and this page will be gone without warning. Although, if I am being honest, I do not feel like much of a creator these days (given my marginal output). I'm not sure what the future has in store, so please feel free to take advantage of using the update tier rather than continuing to pay a premium. While the support is appreciated, sometimes I feel bad about not producing enough anymore to justify the price.

As I have shared before, my mental health absolutely tanked over the last few months. It was probably the worst that my depression has gotten in years, if not ever. However, I was finally able to stabilize a few weeks ago, which is what allowed me to finish up those rough edits. I'm not sure what the future has to offer as far as content goes, but I would like to keep pursuing this as long as I am able to (after my coursework ends, there is a chance that my time will open back up). If that means going back to releasing clips on stores rather than using a monthly service, perhaps that might make me feel less guilty. Or perhaps I may be finally reaching a point when the time I am spending on content is becoming an active detriment to my professional life. Either way, I will try to be as transparent as possible, as always.