latenight rambles and soft tunes [Ramble] [Talks] [Ambient relaxing music] [Sleepy soft man] [Existensialism] [Bilingualism]

you speak english better than me and it’s my first language😭

i tried to listen to this when i saw the notification this morning but i was half asleep and the cozy vibes didn’t help 😭 sometimes i think about how a lot of people only see language as like a communication tool and it’s crazy to me because humans infuse so much into language everyday without even trying. it has so many different uses and fulfills so many different purposes then even that changes depending on what language or type of speech you’re using, what situation you’re in, who you’re talking to, your own experiences, or the history of the language in whatever location you’re in. there’s just so much there beyond just the words that are said and it amazes me whenever i think about it too hard. I’ve always wondered what meanings different languages have for the people that speak them. For me, I grew up speaking English in a household where my parents would regularly switch from English to Jamaican patois. I don’t speak patois but when I hear someone else speak it, I feel comfortable and warm and like I share an innate connection with the person even if they’re a complete stranger. thank you crunch (and chat) for sharing all these thoughts. these talks are the kinds you only really get to have with a group of friends at like 1 AM but i think they’re important and fun to have and i wish had them more often <3

aiden ♡

(patreon pls don't eat my comment 🥲) when you posted this it was evening for you but early morning for me and you made me all sleepy 😆 but it's evening now and i have a moment to scribble something down in literary studies there's this book by rebecca walkowitz, "born translated", where she talks about multilingual contemporary novelists and their books, written for translation, as translations or about the translation process - works that not necessarily belong to one "national literature", but rather tie into those other concepts of comparison literature and world literature. it isn't directly related to what you were saying, but this idea of people having more than one language as a tool of expression (and the option to pick one of them according to their needs) often comes to my mind when you start talking about your experiences. It's really interesting to listen to your thoughts on this, especially because my experiences are vastly different. also i don't remember where I read this, but apparently the language thing might be important in sports teams - short commands that the coach gives in English are sometimes better understood by players than directions in their mother tongue. When it comes to their native lgs they overthink and overcomplicate things - the sport is simpler in English. also this is random, but at uni it was very natural to me to express myself in English both in writing and in speaking. But even back then when I saw a number written down (or time, or price etc.), my brain read it in Polish even if the whole text was in English?? like what's up with that anyway, languages do be weird and relistening to this made me feel very comfy and very sleepy 💚🥱 nighty night everybody

I’m having a lot of difficulty getting my thoughts together these days. But this made my day. And I don’t believe I’ve got this right now so for the moment I’ll believe in the far away stranger across the world until I can again. Thank you 💗

cherucaustic

noting while listening. - first and foremost, the bgm really makes me feel like we are friends just hanging out, talking for hours nonstop and now we have arrived at the topic of existentialism. - my brain does that, too, when i'm obsessed with something, it feels like nothing ceases to exist except me and that thing. it has its pros and cons, i can tell you that. - i definitely feel like i don't belong anywhere, too, and it pains me to think that i won't ever belong to somewhere at all. home isn't a place or a feeling, it's just. a word. in which i don't really know the meaning of. - growing up in a country where neocolonialism is very much apparent even at this era and prioritizes English over our mother tongue sucks. yes, English has been taught to us ever since we learned how to talk. growing up bilingual is awesome but it can be so confusing at times. also the thing with having different personalities when switching languages is definitely real 😆 there are things i can definitely express well with our mother tongue and with English. can i just add that English is exhausting but maybe that's because it's my second language. - can i tell you that just updating slash rumbling here is enough for us? honestly personally i was having a bad day but finding out that you have updated made me smile today (or yesterday in our time). thanking you isn't enough for that level of positivity you bring to our lives so please be happy. i'm very grateful to have existed on the same time as you and all the lovely people here in chat. crunchy, u also got this! i believe in u, i hope u have a great time on wherever u r on the world and always stay safe!

Crunchy, this 🧡

These types of soft rambles have that affect on me too 🥲

Also, sorry for talking everyone's ear off. I have a lot of feeeeeliiiiings today, apparently.

Well, my phone decided not to notify me that you posted until 2 hours later at 2 am so I sleepily listened then promptly fell back asleep again. The soft music (some of which I remember from streams. So familiar. 🤍), the tone of voice, the rambly thoughts. All of the softness. It was just so soothing to spend this time with you. It felt like friends just relaxing on our respective sides of the bed unwinding our minds. (I am pleased to report there were no cookie crumbs on this side of the imaginary bed.) Thank you. 💜 I canceled my Disney+ subscription last month after I caught up on Marvel things but now I'm tempted to start it back so I can watch the volcano documentary. It sounds like it's right up my alley. I'm not sure if I can adequately articulate the feelings I'm having listening to these thoughts on existentialism. It makes me want to cry (not in a bad way, please never stop sharing these thoughts.) It makes me marvel that us existing at the same time in eternity is such a NARROW window of chance. That one tiny misstep one way or the other would have resulted in me not being born, or any one of you, Crunch or chat, not being born, or any other chain of events that led me here to this community. The fragility of life. Such huge concepts for such tiny tiny people. Like the James Webb telescope images, you know? How important we must be that something orchestrated us to be where we all are in space and time, but also how insignificant, because as you said, it's the blink of an eye. It's just... the depth of it makes me emotional. And very very grateful. I'm so glad your throat is almost healed. And don't worry about the recording equipment difficulties. As long as you keep poking your head up occasionally and letting us know you're okay, whether that's a ramble or a lens, we'll be happy to wait until things get straightened out. I think you might be stuck with us. 🙃 Please don't cringe at yourself for the fancy talk. I think it shows that you're weighing your words carefully. Wanting to share exactly what is in your heart. I think that's very sweet. Also? I totally looked at myself in the mirror this morning and said, "HEY! You got this!" You're always so encouraging to us, Crunch. I keep saying thank you, but I can't think of a better sentiment than that. You do so much good. I hope you get to feel the precious value of that often. I'm grateful we exist at the same time, too. I hope your Tuesday is gentle and pleasant. 🌼

Thank you so much ❤️

We love a fancy poetry man❤

the vibes are immaculate here 👌 i really loved this soft, introspective ramble with relaxing ambient music there’s a lot i could say about the topics you’ve mentioned, but honestly i’m just basking in the warm, cosy feeling this ramble gave me, and i just want to reflect on your thoughts rather than typing out my own. i will say that this ramble made me think about when i discovered you and your content, and how grateful i am for your existence as well. you’ve helped me embrace my softness and to not be ashamed of it, to nurture the romantic side of me i usually keep hidden. not only that, but hearing your perspective on various topics and getting to know some lovely people in this community has really helped broaden my own perspective on life in general. very very grateful for you and this community 🤍 sending lots of love and hugs, and i’m glad you’re feeling better ✨ thanks for sharing your thoughts with us :)

cosmic