SamuZai
confade
confade

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ugh...

I guess I don't talk about myself a lot, but there's definitely a person behind the "Confade" handle. I've always been really fuckin' depressed/anxious, but this last year (after YEARS of working through shit+medications) I've finally wanted to live.

That being said, I have gotten SO TIRED lately. Not just literally sleep exhausted (which was its own issue I was ALSO fixing recently). I live in the US and people with power have been shitting on EVERYTHING. They're making trying to live incredibly difficult/horrifying. I'm someone the fascists want to exterminate and having lived in poverty/the edge of homelessness my whole life, I can't realistically escape.

So I'm at the mercy of others as it's always been. I like making content. It's something I finally feel like I'm able to do. I'm super grateful for those that help me pay bills+eat. I don't want to stop, but I might have to if I can't contribute anymore financially with what I'm trying to earn. I'd love to only do commissions and not have any paywalled content; I know how frustrating it can be to wait for stuff to become public. I've finally tasted any sort of stability in my life thanks to this patreon and everyone helping me. I hope that doesn't go away.

I'm scared, disappointed, angry, tired, embarrassed, and a myriad of other feelings, but life goes on while I'm still alive...

Anyways, I'm done rambling. Enjoy a new drawing a day until the end of July to try to catch up on my backlog of unposted stuff. (Then it's back to Mon, Wed, Fri again.)

ugh...

Comments

Hope things get better for you.

SILENGE

Thank you for sharing your thoughts, and keep your chin up, you got this. I think your doing great and i hope your day is going wonderful!

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