We shot a set of images one beautiful spring day out at Ostrowite, just outside Poznan, in some fields by the side of a quiet farming road. The set was shot for Nakid Magazine's summer edition editorial 'SUMMER OF LOVE'. Nakid Mag seemed appropriate as they often feature couples, and they seem open minded as far as showcasing males goes - this is not often the case with Instagram mags that are obsessed with socially normalised females between the ages of 18 and 24.
For many years I've pushed the fact that the photo modelling world is lop sided, unbalanced, sexist and narrow minded, reflecting the social norms we're all used to. I've also publicly questioned photographers about their work, and made myself unpopular in the process but I have never asked any questions of others that I haven't first asked myself. It's worth thinking hard about why you may only shoot females for a start, really, the real reason.... this is revealing to some photographers and they can sometimes find it hard to come to terms with it.
Anyway, this set wasn't about that. It was more about two people in love and taking some nice pics outdoors. But my hesitation to do the pics and my self consciousness regarding my age and the age difference between Aurora and myself got me thinking. This is something I face daily. Dissapproving glares in the street, women hating, thinking, men green with jealousy, also hating.... "gold digger", "old perve", "sicko", "sugar daddy".... I've heard it all and it never ends. I'm sick of it too. It's narrow minded, jealous, conservatism and is driven by those two things, social norms and jealousy.
There are so many angles to it, but one of the aspects I find really hard to deal with is the male jealousy thing and what this causes. It is so hard to understand that some guys who are insanely jealous harbour a deep hatred for me, I see it in their eyes, their conversations (when we're out in clubs etc), in their gestures toward me and their comments, to both Aurora and me. Aurora has been approached numerous times in public and asked things like, "Why are you with him?" I see a hatred and I feel an undertone of violence. It's scary and it worries me that something bad may happen some time. It doesn't take much extrapolation to imagine this, especially in some of the clubs we go to.
Anyway, I have plenty to say about this and my work, as usual, will be the voice I use to say it.
And we have some beautiful pictures to share from this set too.
More later.