carontearts

It’s been rough.

Added 2022-06-19 11:29:49 +0000 UTC

Hey guys, I’m feeling like talking a bit about the circumstances around my life as of late. I didn’t want to post any journal nor Tweet, but I thought that Patreon would be the right place to vent for a bit. To put it simple, art is the only thing that is keeping me going these days.

Unfortunately, I have had a big hit in my life a month ago and I’m recovering since then. I’ve been fighting for something for almost two years and in May it crashed and burn. I find peace only when drawing and, if I don’t draw daily I feel scared and hopeless. At times it feels like I’m living a nightmare and I’m not sure how to wake up from it.

As of late, art keeps me going. Besides, I’m happy reading the comments I get in each drawing. I’m going to therapy, trying to find a way out but, even if I’m making progress I still feel very vulnerable and uncertain of what future has for me. As I write this I feel very emotional and on the verge of tears. It is hard to move on but I have to find the way.

I apologise this journal is probably, pretty heavy and I don’t want to concern anyone. it took me time to even talk about my emotions publicly because I’m still digesting so much, and even almost two month after that emotional damage, I feel like I barely walked few meters.

I’m fighting. Art is being my lifeline.

Thanks for reading me.