Back.

So, probably all of you would be thinking, where I've gone, why I am not posting here or on the channel, why I haven't replied to anyone of you (although I always did, and on time). 

Well, there had been 3 deaths. And I had a lot of hearts to console in my maternal & paternal families.

Few months ago I shared about my maternal grandmother who was too old and sick. Well, with heavy heart, she's no more. I believe and the signs I picked, she's in a lot better place. 

My paternal uncle, my dad's younger brother along with this 18 year sold, met an unfortunate accident and both are no more. 

It was a lot of grief to swallow, and as I said, I had a lot of hearts to console in both (maternal & paternal) families. I couldn't just, grab all the energy and work. I was off of social media and I just can't gather the words. 

For my grandma, I was her only grandchild for a good time and that exactly tells the level of connection, love, & attention she poured. She was simple, naive and innocent, and lived a simple life, like idk how to put it in words, but she was used to of living in older and simpler times. She was a great woman, faced a lot of pain and hardships in life. She was just great. 

My uncle, although he was younger than my father, but he always supported my father in his tough times, and was kind, loving and caring, treated me like his own kids. We went on road trips in my teenage days, still remember that. His son, he was a bright student, wanted to become a doctor. I used to tell him and his other siblings stories in childhood. IDK man, IDK, I just don't know. They gone soon, too soon. 

I just took a deep breath after writing these to paras. I am not sure what I am going to write next. I just wanted to give all of you an update that why I took off. You guys are my family as well. You all supported me, I should be here for all of you as well. 

I've come back to home this past weekend. It had been a lot of time. 

I am just not sure where to start, how to address all of this, what to even say. 

While typing this message I am having a headache and not sure what to say. 

I turned my laptop on and just checked the projects under work folder on my pc and I had a lot of great work coming up, a lot of your requests and what not. 

I am still not sure where to start. But I'm back. You guys are my family too. 

And I have seen a lot of you still supporting me. You guys have always been like a family to me, in fact you guys are my family and I have always said & admired it. 

I am thankful for all of you, for your love, your prayers, your support, your kindness. 

I'll be starting to work again, and will try to reply all of you, your comments & messages, guide you and work on your requests, one by one. I'll try to sort things on patreon 1st and then start working on the channel as well. 

Thank you all. ❤ 🌹