Hey :) Here's how I'm doing (Life update)

Hello my Softies and Galoshies! I know I didn't do a ton of life updating last month, so let's fix that this month :) 

I have been doing mostly well. I've had some emotional stress due to the state of the world. I think basically everyone has. It's hard to deal with because there's no immediate way to resolve it. So I just have to keep breathing and putting it aside throughout the day or I won't be able to function. 

I've also been having very difficult therapy sessions lately due to the very deep issues that we're finally going through. I don't want to share personal details about the nature of these issues, but just know that while painful, it's a good thing that I'm finally trying to heal these particular wounds. Therapy has saved my life many times and it has changed so many things for me.

I just got an update on my cat's health situation and unfortunately her thryoid levels are quite high again. Her heart stress test came back much higher than we've ever seen it, despite it having a downward trend before. And the proteins in her urine are all high again too. So far the plan is to increase her thyroid medication and have her do another echocardiogram to see if the stress is damaging her heart. Hopefully we can get her thryoid back under control and the echo will show us no damage to her heart.

She is a sweet precious baby who is very happy and taken care of. I don't know if she'll still be with us for years to come or not. I just know I do everything I can to make her feel happy, safe, and loved. She's 16 and I've had her since she was a baby when I got her in eighth grade. 

I'm incredibly grateful for my boyfriend who is such a wonderful light in my life. He is so sweet with Isabel (my cat), and I can tell that she loves him and feels safe with him. We get along so well and it's such a giving, loving, happy relationship. I had to work hard to get where I am mentally and emotionally. Having borderline personality disorder makes maintaining relationships with other people very difficult and painful. But I'm glad that I've reached a point where I can be a good partner to someone. 

My amount of patrons has boomed so much in the last few months! I'm so grateful that all of you want to support me, and I hope that I make your time as a patron a welcome one :) I could never be where I'm at without you guys. Thank you. Seriously.

I know that things are very uncertain right now. I hope that we can continue to care for ourselves and our loved ones, and try to push for a better, more generous world. Some people like to say, "life isn't fair! get used to it!" But I don't think we should get used to it. I think we should make a more fair world. I hope that we can get there. 

My heart goes out to all of you struggling with everything that's happening. The effects of the pandemic, the big decisions happening in various countries... it's all a lot. Let's try to care for each other and ourselves.

Thanks for reading <3