Hey! Just some things I wanna get off my chest.

Hey everyone!

There’s an elephant in the room and I feel I need to address it to remain open and transparent with you all.

First of all, let me start off by thanking you all for your support and patronage. While I understand that this update may not be what you want to hear, I think it’s important for me to get off my chest and share my plans for this platform moving forward to set expectations straight.

Over these past few years a lot has happened that deeply impacted my mental health.

When I first started out, I was drawing for myself, exploring my interests freely and without expectation. As I grew in my talent, I began experimenting with new techniques and comics. These were fun little doodles that I made because I had such an intense love, joy, and inspiration for Kacchako.

But somewhere down the line that joy gradually transformed into anxiety that has festered and brought me to such an intense amount of stress that I, in turn, burnt myself out trying to meet expectations.

I felt like an imposter, guilty of failing to meet expectations and disappointing all my followers if I didn’t churn out comics or content fast enough. This, ultimately, hindered my creativity greatly. It added to the burn out and drained my creativity even faster.

Rather than the escape from my stress it was meant to be, I became trapped in it, unable to work on the things that I truly wanted to without feeling badly. I felt that I had a duty and responsibility to draw what everyone else wanted of me and if I wasn’t doing that, then I was wasting people’s time and patronage.

There are many goals for myself that I set and never achieved; many personal deadlines I never met (a printed book, merch, a store…). Each time I failed to make any progress toward those goals, it felt like a personal blow. It worsened my state of mind and I began to resent myself more and more.

This, along with some personal stressors in my life sent me into a terrible depression that I have struggled with. I couldn’t find the joy or motivation to draw, I couldn’t find the energy or will to work on the stories that I love.

Because of that, my Patreon has dropped astronomical amounts and that has also become another source of stress and panic, as I had been relying on it as my main source of income. This was my lively hood and one I was so incredibly grateful for and appreciative of… I just couldn’t help but feel I let everyone down.

While some of these stressors and pressures are in my head, I am aware that this content is specifically what many of you follow me for—specifically my Kacchako comics and content.

I owe it to myself now, and to you all, to be honest and confess that I have lost interest in Kacchako and just don’t have the inspiration or desire to draw it anymore.

Of course I will always love this ship, the community, and the opportunities it gave me! But so much has happened to impacted me in ways I never thought it would. It’s time that I start healing myself from the inside, even if that means taking a step in a new direction.

I have moved on to other interests, and I want to explore other things while just having fun with my art again. I want to be able to enjoy drawing, making stories, and most importantly: Draw for myself.

For those of you that have stayed and supported me through here I am so incredibly grateful and cannot express my love enough. For those that left, that’s okay! I totally understand. I see many of you supporting me from other platforms and appreciate your continued support in all capacities. Thank you.

Going forward, please understand and expect that my output may vary. My content will be a reflection of my interests and inspiration in the moment. While I understand there will be a lack of content you initially came for, I hope that you’ll continue to enjoy and support my work, and understand that this shift is a natural course of my own growth and development.

Thank you all for accompanying me on this journey, whether you have chosen to stay or go. I hope to continue creating many more fun things from here on out!

P.S I still plan to edit and put together the remainder of what I have left of the Good Girl comic to upload here for archives.