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I did lose the contract and most of the hard work the may go in vain, but I'm glad I decided to work on it last month instead of going on a family trip to a beach festival, because a tsunami happened right in that beach, on that date of the festival. I guess, in a way, it saved my life.

Perhaps, it's God's way to tell me I must stay alive and do more good things to repent for my past mistakes. 

This is actually against my religious belief (we are not allowed to tell anyone if we donate or do good things), but I do use some of my Patreon earnings to donate to Lombok Earthquake and recently, Palu Earthquake and Tsunami. I also spared some of my earnings to buy extra cat food, streetfeeding stray cats and dogs as I jog every morning. Just recently I started buying "sembako" (basic necessities; rice, eggs, cooking oil, sugar, etc) in packages, keep them in my car so whenever I see poor homeless people, I can hand them the package (because giving them money is illegal; though I still do, forgive me government, lol).

I'm in no way trying to boast; I just want to tell you that, despite my mistakes, I'm trying to be a better person. This may be funny because I make NSFW stuffs but 80-100% of the time I'm watching TV, I'm watching religious programs (yeaaa while I draw Jinsoo's naked butt, forgive me God). I do religious fasting every other day, praying 5 times a day (someday even more) - something I never did last year. My family said I changed for better; I think they are right, I no longer look like a depressed emo beggar that even my mother couldn't recognize as myself...

...I have become myself again.

(I know religion isn't everyone's thing but I think it helps me a lot to overcome my depression.... in a country where access to psychological health care is very difficult and expensive, meditating through prayers and fasting help)

I don't think I could EVER leave yaoi but I'm trying to be a better person who can add positive contribution to those around me. I also think that volunteering in social activities once in a while, helps with me social anxiety.

I'm so glad, I'm so glad to be here, happy to be alive all the hardships and foolishness I created myself. And I'll show my gratitude by working even harder and make even more pleasing contents for you guys, and for everyone too! Thank you for being with me through the hardest year of my life so far. Thank you for making me feel loved and appreciated. I love you, love you love you love you, love you to the moon and back!!!! <3 <3 <3