Hug my therapist? Stop those negative thoughts! Dealing with work stress, & Ketamine for depression!

1. I have a great connection with my new therapist. And for the first time I asked her if I could have a hug, she said yes happily. And I was so grateful because we worked on something really tough and I needed that hug. BUT I also keep a "tough shell".. I don't often let my emotions show, and rarely ever like physical affection, even if it is a simple hug. But after giving me a hug she said if I ever need a hug she's there for me, that she just will respect my space and I need to ask her. Which I REALLY appreciated her respect of boundaries! Which I never doubted she had poor boundaries, but it reassured me that she really is awesome. Along with her letting me know I can always get a huge she said if I ever needed her to sit next to me when I'm talking about something really tough she would. We usually sit across from one another (in the "typical" therapy office scenario)... but her offering that meant a lot to me. To know that she not only cares about what I'm saying but she's willing to give me that extra support. I want to ask her to sit next to me next time, but I also have that "tough shell" and am worried I won't be able to ask her. The real question is, is it wrong of me to want a hug now and again from my therapist?

2. Every time, I start to feel better life happens and knocks me down again. It is not always the same thing, as a matter of fact it is always changing, evolving as life should. The problem is my frustration level is thorough the roof which causes me to shut down, give-up, and negative thoughts take over. I am pretty good at just noticing them and letting them go, however I would like them to go away completely.  Am I expecting too much, is this just part of feelings? How do I except the situations that are so overwhelming for me to handle alone, knowing that I am all I have?

3. Hey Kati! I've been trying to advocate for myself at work recently because of a change in responsibility to my position that I wasn't forewarned about and I haven't been getting anywhere. I've spoken with my boss about how the lack of training surrounding the new addition to my skill set is really anxiety provoking and we got an extra hour of training (making 4 hours total) but beyond that there's nothing they will do to help. On top of that they're planning on "training" me for a third and much more involved call type and I'm terrified of what it will do to me mentally knowing how they handled the last up-skill. I'm not alone in feeling this way, multiple people have expressed the same concerns to our supervisor as well as other supervisors, but there doesn't seem to be much hope for improvement. Aside from applying for positions outside of my building (I've applied for four now) or leaving I don't know what to do. My therapist also seems to be at a loss about how they're not willing to help us help ourselves if that makes sense and she seemed pretty concerned about how severely this increased my anxiety level so quickly. I've even tried to speak with my pcp about a possible Med change, but because of medication for my chronic illness that I'm on I have a better chance of seeing pigs fly than getting a switch there. I'm curious to hear your thoughts on what to do as possible next steps because I'm out of ideas.

 4. What are your thoughts on ketamine infusion therapy for treatment resistant depression?