Religion in therapy | Romantic relationships? Inpatient vs medical treatment! Clear Communication

1. I’m seeing a christian counsellor who values including God in the therapeutic process. I do too and I was open to move slowly through this but it was stupidly triggering some big reactions in me every session. I didn’t want to be closed off to God, rather, acknowledge that God is present as I begin processing life events but I made it really clear that was as far as I was willing to go with Him right now. My counsellor kept pushing me every session around the topic and has now said, “Until I am ready to include God in the process, we won’t go and talk about those life events.” I told her I was open to discussing the life events with the goal of bringing God into the picture when I am ready but she won’t do it that way and so has paused all conversations on shame issues until I will take that step with God. Everything within me wants to go find a new therapist, so confused right now and don’t even know what the real question is I am trying to ask in all this.

My video on religion in therapy: https://youtu.be/7_uf484Ur4Q

2. Hi Kati, my parents divorced when I was 12 and they screamed and fought with each other for years. I think this has made me extremely fearful of becoming close to anyone because I am afraid that they will become angry with me eventually, and yell like my parents did. My question is how to know what a healthy romantic relationship is like if you have never been exposed to one before, ie parents divorced and always had tumultuous relationships with romantic partners. Also, how do you overcome the fear of ending up in a bad relationship besides avoiding them altogether?

3. I feel like I need to go inpatient; but, I have some serious health issues that I'm in the middle of some important tests.  I'm worried that if I don't go inpatient; I will deteriorate enough that I will be a danger to myself.  My self harm is the worst it's ever been.  At the same time I'm worried that if I go inpatient; medical evaluations will stop.  And that my health will deteriorate to the point where I will become a danger to myself; as I am running out of stamina. 

4. I have been seeing my current therapist for three years now. I first started with her at my University when she was a trainee, and now she is in her intern period and I am seeing her at another location. Communication has been an issue with us ever since I started seeing her outside of my university (2 years). I mean that as days/weeks without any response, canceling appointments the day of, and not following up. So much of me wants to stay with her because the time in session is so fruitful, but I am not sure that the communication outside is an okay thing. So basically my question/s are is this an okay thing to do, am I being too needy or expecting too much? We supposed to meet two weeks ago, and I hadn't heard anything from her, so I thought it might have been a supervision change. She emailed me earlier this week asking about a time, and when I responded there has been nothing coming from her end. If it is time to cut ties is it better to have the conversation in person or via email?