ED Confrontation | Touch in Therapy | Binge versus Diet | Afraid of Relapse

1. I have yet to tell anyone about my ED, but lately my mom has been asking a ton of questions about my eating habits and why I never take a break from working out. She confessed that she struggled with an ED in the past.  Just recently she finally asked if I was struggling with an ED. Instead of telling her the truth, I got very angry and denied everything.. Was it normal for me to react this way? I've only recently been able to accept the fact that I even have this problem and I feel like I'm being thrown into the recovery process, even though I'm not ready. How do I confront her after getting so angry?

2. Hey Kati, when is touch appropriate in therapy? I have difficulty feeling safe enough around the people in my life to ask for a hug, but I do feel safe around my therapist. I often find myself thinking about how supported I would feel if she were to hold my hand while I talked through my trauma, or if she would hug me when things are really difficult and emotional. Are these appropriate things to ask for? Do you hug clients?

3. I can't seem to keep my eating under control unless I eat something like X. I believe this works because of the amount of fat and protein I am eating gets me to feel full before my binging gets completely out of control. I have come to realize even while eating something like X, I don't know how to just eat a meal. I tend to eat a lot of something until I feel full.  If I eat any sort of carb heavy stuff like pizza or chips or something I binge like crazy and don't stop until I feel sick. How can I learn to eat in a healthy way and control my eating?  I know what foods are good for me or not good for me, but when I feel upset or whatever I want to go straight to binge foods. I don't even really eat meals most of the time. 

4. I have a question for you. I said before that I've been doing really well lately. I am what you consider a mentally healthy person. I am near the end of the process of weaning off my antidepressants, which I was on for 5 years. I am really happy and proud of myself, but a small part of me is worried about relapsing into depression in the near or far future (or more specifically falling too quickly without time to catch myself). Is this fear normal? How can I let go of this fear? And what can I do to avoid a relapse, or handle one if it happens? Besides telling my counsellor (which I will do), do you have any other tips?