Ashlee Tayla

Ashlee Tayla

early access to an existential crisis lol

Added 2021-10-21 10:47:46 +0000 UTC

hey besties here’s a quick video i filmed tonight and will prob upload tomorrow. i dunno what it is. this is maybe the most vulnerable i’ve ever been online so i apologise lol

early access to an existential crisis lol

Comments

This video honestly broke my heart because I feel the same way about myself. Please know that I’m so happy you’re still here, and I’m so proud of you for fighting through all the darkness in your life, even if you don’t see it yourself sometimes ❤️❤️

Erik Danielson

2021-10-21 12:58:32 +0000 UTC

Hey, as someone who wasted their teen years (partly because I took them for granted and partly due to other struggles), I felt a lot like you when I turned 20. Almost 3 years later, I can tell you that the regret is still kind of there, but it wasn't as important as I thought it was. I have had great things happen in my life post-turning 20, and I'm hoping for more. I think the reason we get so down about turning 20, is because of how romanticised the teenage years are. So much of popular media is set in high school, so many romance plot lines, so many novels. We form this idea of how our teens "should" be rather than accepting that reality doesn't have to be defined by the same standards. But it's hard to let that ideology go, because it's really all we know. When you reach 20, it feels like you've reached the end of a countdown where you've missed out on all these opportunities you could have had, if only you were in a better place to take them. But as time goes on, you realise that certain "teenage milestones" can be achieved throughout your life. Relationships, friendships and pretty much everything in life is up for grabs for the rest of your life. Time is fluid, and you realise that life shouldn't be defined by the decades as life goes on, life just is, and it's punctuated by things that can happen regardless of what age you are. If I can be a little vulnerable for a sec and say something a little personal, I am turning 23 and I don't share the same experiences as other people my age, especially having been through college. It gets under my skin sometimes, but I think that we shouldn't measure our successes by the lives of others, or how we are expected to live ours. You have time, and it's not borrowed time. You've earned it with every single day you're still here. And if you'll accept it from a total stranger on the Internet, I am happy you're here.

2021-10-21 11:20:29 +0000 UTC

More Creators

leeboxxx

leeboxxx

patreon

やどたいちょう

やどたいちょう

fanbox

MirroredDreamsCC

MirroredDreamsCC

patreon

Rhastaラスタ

Rhastaラスタ

fanbox

yebiusd

yebiusd

fanbox

み

fanbox

mmmmm

mmmmm

fanbox

Ok-General-2313

Ok-General-2313

patreon

marymadisonlove

marymadisonlove

patreon

blindneko99

blindneko99

patreon

ThirdWheelClop

ThirdWheelClop

patreon

odd pyro

odd pyro

patreon

The 40k Lorecast

The 40k Lorecast

patreon

yaboimatoi

yaboimatoi

patreon

司马懿扬

司马懿扬

fanbox

RodriGuez

RodriGuez

fanbox

ASAGAMIYO

ASAGAMIYO

fanbox

noriyuuart

noriyuuart

patreon

白蜜

fanbox

あぶのー丸

あぶのー丸

fanbox

Barberryasmr

Barberryasmr

patreon

A Moon Calendar and Seasonal Companion 2020 www.naturetimecalendar.com

A Moon Calendar and Seasonal Companion 2020 www.naturetimecalendar.com

gumroad

Doovad

Doovad

patreon

MTTR_Iwara

MTTR_Iwara

patreon

chunie

chunie

patreon

dawapat

dawapat

fanbox

luxcache

luxcache

patreon

spring2013

spring2013

fanbox

NemuiMori

NemuiMori

patreon

JilliBeanz

JilliBeanz

patreon

dcauwatchtower

dcauwatchtower

patreon

Sabine Esmeray

Sabine Esmeray

patreon

𝓑𝓤𝓣𝓣𝓔𝓡𝓑𝓞𝓨

𝓑𝓤𝓣𝓣𝓔𝓡𝓑𝓞𝓨

gumroad

tsulala

tsulala

patreon

アナルシア

アナルシア

fanbox

RoooMDR

RoooMDR

patreon

ET

fanbox

シーザーキャラメル

シーザーキャラメル

fanbox

Laura Elizabeth

Laura Elizabeth

gumroad

grand

grand

fanbox

MMA Breakdowns and Bets

MMA Breakdowns and Bets

patreon

Floox508

Floox508

patreon

bohohon

bohohon

boosty

Jay Eaton

Jay Eaton

patreon

Cristy Reacts

Cristy Reacts

patreon

tomacosunderland

tomacosunderland

patreon

nudekittyn

nudekittyn

patreon

ruma

ruma

patreon

Wwavy Newton

Wwavy Newton

patreon

eldrikaethervial

eldrikaethervial

patreon