News: Things are going badly.

Hello all,

As always I am struggling to meet deadlines and keep things going at a rate I consider viable. I am not happy with how few chapters I have written, or with the state of my life.

Now I wrote a ten page essay on why this is but nobody wants to read a laundry list of my problems. Suffice to say the last ten years of my life have seen an endless chain of struggle. My current burden is my wife is in the hospital and her survival is in question. She was sick even before I was diagnosed with cancer, but over the past few years her condition has gotten much worse. I took over doing all the things she used to do, cooking, cleaning, shopping, laundry, dog care etc, as well as becoming her full-time caregiver.

I am sorry, but because of past disruptions I had so much debt that I was working all the overtime and side jobs I could while also caring for my sick wife. This made it impossible to keep up with my three stories, and even when I did put out chapters, I was never happy with them.

I have been considering shutting it all down. If I do so, I will simply close the patreon, canceling your subscriptions and putting a final free public post to explain why. I have set a sort of doomsday clock on my progress. If I go another three weeks without an update, I am likely going to shut it down.

I have kept these up because my wife knows I love to write. She feels that she has become a serious burden to my life and has effectively ruined it. Because of that, she has begged me not to give up the one last thing she hasn’t managed to ruin.

The issue is I spend most of my days between work and the hospital now. I am home to feed the dog, feed myself, take a shower and sleep. She has insisted that I start taking some time to write again, cutting down my time at the hospital to do so. I have done so this morning and as such we have a chapter but I didn’t feel good about it. As you can imagine, my heart and my thoughts are on my wife. Honestly, I only wrote this morning because the side job I had planned called to cancel and I suddenly had a bank of time to myself.

I feel like I am writing one of these updates every month now. I can’t believe that my life has become so unstable or that no matter how hard I work, I can’t catch up. I avoid using the discord because I honestly don’t have time to talk and I didn’t want to explain why.

Anyway, I felt I owed you an explanation and wanted to share my recent thoughts about closing it down.

Thank you for putting up with me. I hate drama and I am one of those people who flees it when other people have it. You know you don’t subscribe to something like this to be beaten over the head with somebodies issues. You subscribe to escape into a different world where you can forget the real one. I am aware it is my job to entertain, but I have been failing at it and I don’t blame any of you for wanting to go. Hopefully, some divine being will take pity on me and intervene to save me. Until then, I will do my best to post at least once a week.