I also have this happen to me and in comparing pre-psychotic life early 2006 (this did not happen then) and since I have been in full remission from schizoaffective disorder (June 2022) it is still happening but is a little different than exactly what you described so well in this video. So my conclusion is that it is this disorder that causes me to freeze when in a conflict and takes me anywhere from a few minutes to a week to process fully. Would love to chat sometime.
2022-10-17 07:49:22 +0000 UTC
Have you ever had a concussion? Disorientation under duress is a symptom. I used to get so scared on the way to the psychiatrist office that I would get lost! If someone throws a sucker punch with meanness I start crying. And that's never good for me because crying gives me a hangover of sorts. For many years doctors have thought the concussions were benign. I work the ER for a decade and we told our patients that after 36 hours if they didn't die they were safe. That's because we thought the blood vessel below the concussion might burst. Concussion injury does not affect gray matter it affects the white matter. Bundles of neurons that make your neural networks. They get torque or stretched in the covering starts to die which sets up an inflammatory response killing more of the Schwann cells which are like insulation for the nerves. It doesn't have to be a huge concussion to have this happen and many people don't know why they're handicapped! It affect you administrative functions (being on time, handling money, impulsive behavior and more). In my case the stress response will not shut down when the danger is over. So look back over your life and did you ever get hit in the head or fall on the head or any of that? It could be a reason
2022-07-07 20:45:56 +0000 UTC
Ugh..I have the lowest threshold for frustration-it's so embarrassing and shameful...I used to get so scared and i shake and foam at the mouth and hunch over and get all gnarly...or cried till i break a blood vessel in my face...or run away for days or hours at a time...or drink or drug...
so after years of council i tell myself I can't fight...don't yell...I have to learn to run away when I feel a fight coming...it happens to everyone so I try not to be too hard on myself. I also Know that I can't do work for other people. Also, I try to explain how the fight is so horrific for me when things are chill. I try to connect on a heart level...usually I'm scared when I yell. I communicate that and next time it's a little better. Also, my bud says always give loved ones the benefit of the doubt...and that helps me see the other side. if your yelling more than three times in a month that's too much stress for the little kids-other than that...they are so resilient...but yeah count how often it happens...it's so scary getting into arguments right? ugh...dread it so much...
2022-07-05 20:35:49 +0000 UTC
Yes! This is something I definitely experience and have had a great deal of difficulty with. People tell me I’m not making sense because everything becomes so jumbled in my head. Thank you for laying this out in such an articulate way.
2022-07-05 20:26:56 +0000 UTC
Take a deep breath because you've been victimized and marginalized that's typical of post traumatic stress disorder. Take time for yourself, especially when you have children that need your attention. Wishing you good health!
