Not Ready
Added 2022-05-21 05:17:17 +0000 UTCMidnight on a Friday again, Robin? Look, I get things done when I get them done, and then you all get them.
I shoved this one down pretty hard at the time. But not so hard that it couldn't pop up when I came out and slap me across the face with a sign that says "You fucking egg."
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I'm just loving this whole comment section and everyone on their paths to realizing their true selves. I support you all <3
Rhamona
2022-05-23 23:36:04 +0000 UTCVery true - but knowing about it is step one towards being able to do something about it. None of the other pieces that need to fall into place matter without that one.
Kaiyalai
2022-05-23 16:04:23 +0000 UTCUnfortunately, knowing about it and being able to do something about it are different things XD.
Reiko Lupus
2022-05-22 14:30:29 +0000 UTCI was 18 in 1990 when I got a reply from a woman on the local personals that admitted to being trans femme. She was surprised when I expressed interest but she never responded much more after that first party line connection. I remember Unexplained Feels then..but being mixed up about it.
George Michelle Catron
2022-05-22 05:16:20 +0000 UTCYup. I remember reading an article in my teens about Brazilian trans sex workers; it took another quarter century before I let myself realise that some people are actually cis, and therefore I am trans. In the end, though, I'm still happy I didn't ended up as a stripper in Rio de Janeiro, my current job is a much better match for my overall personality.
Unni Leino
2022-05-21 22:58:50 +0000 UTCYeah. It's tempting to think about "if I had known sooner" scenarios, but there's so many other factors (money, independence, support, availability of care) that meant Now had to be when I made my transition happen.
Robin Brooks
2022-05-21 15:02:14 +0000 UTCI'm so happy for you! Wishing you all the best with the journey ahead. 😊
Robin Brooks
2022-05-21 14:59:19 +0000 UTCas a nearly 50 year old new transitioner.. in my teens.. there was no word for it except shame filled ones.. in my 20s i was swallowed by ultra masculine ideology such as being in the military to "be a man" to hopefully wash those "I wish I was a girl" feelings away.. I wish the world would have been as open back then.. it would have saved me a lot internalized pain. The good news>>> I start HRT next week and begin that medical portion to be my authentic self.. and YOU robin helped crack that egg... so.. thank you.
Kari Jane
2022-05-21 14:25:42 +0000 UTCOh yes, I'm from germany and I remember this person and it was exactly the same here. Took me 7 more years and another trans person I know to understand myself.
Leah
2022-05-21 13:10:54 +0000 UTCThis is such a mood. When I was about 10 or 11, I would shoplift women’s clothes and wear them in my room with the door locked. They made me happy, made me comfortable with my body, or at least more comfortable. Never understood why, never tried to figure it out. I just thought I was a freak. Nope, turns out I was just a girl. Didn’t figure it out until I was 22.
Jess Colville
2022-05-21 07:00:26 +0000 UTCFucking this was me but it was mtf transformation porn when I was like 12 or 13 😂
Valka Blackwell
2022-05-21 06:33:51 +0000 UTCMy own daughter told me I should just be trans and start HRT. I think that set me back at least 2 years 🤦🏼♀️ Dang if she wasn’t right, even if I wasn’t ready to hear it
Rho-Syn
2022-05-21 06:02:36 +0000 UTCYeah I read this and thought "If only I could have done that." Had no idea I'd have such a good transition even at 43. Still lots of reasons why it wouldn't have happened though.
Addie
2022-05-21 05:33:38 +0000 UTCYeah I don't remember that exactly, instead I just prayed for God to turn me into a girl and also change everyone else's memory so it had always been that way when I was like 12
Elizabeth Holley
2022-05-21 05:27:00 +0000 UTCThank you! Yeah, I feel my brain tried to toss this one in the pit, but it just kept coming back.
Robin Brooks
2022-05-21 05:25:44 +0000 UTCYeeeeeeep. This is easily my most eggy memory too. New ones keep cropping up but I doubt they're ever gonna beat that one.
Phoenix Cherry
2022-05-21 05:25:06 +0000 UTCEggs do be like that.
Robin Brooks
2022-05-21 05:24:29 +0000 UTCOh gosh THE CORE MEMORIES. Hnnnnnggggg. XD As always thank you for your work Robin. Love every post!
Klara Maye
2022-05-21 05:20:01 +0000 UTCGoddamnit Robin, I read an article about the *same girl* when she started blockers at twelve And thought 'wow that would be cool' AND THEN LIVED ANOTHER 25 YEARS WITHOUT REEXAMINING THAT THOUGHT
Phoenix Cherry
2022-05-21 05:19:56 +0000 UTC
