Deriaz

Suppressed and Depressed (Hi Res + Extra Thoughts)

Added 2020-07-06 18:45:07 +0000 UTC

This is the hi-res version, 3600 px tall! Thank you for your continued support. <3

A painting for cad_wing on Twitter, Cad! Break free.

This one's a bit personal to Cad, so my description here will be brief. Thank you again, Cad, for your generous help, support, and for being such a good dude.

And thank you all for your continued support, as well. Please keep staying safe and cautious out there, especially if you are in the US. No getting sick! That's an order!

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Whoof. This one's a doozy. Not in content, but in how it went for me. I'm a bit embarrassed of myself, but I need to be 100% honest, I feel.

With the pandemic, unemployment, and the news, my frustration in things has definitely skyrocketed. I've been funneling more and more time into art, though it's at a detriment. I had a budget of 10 hours, and I believe we ended somewhere around 20 to 25 here, if I haven't entirely forgotten how math works.

I'm not upset with the result! It's more in myself for feeling like I'm slowing down a bit. I know it's because of stress, but I know it could also be due to my process. Perhaps I need to stop rendering so much? Or just... Gosh, I'm not sure. Maybe I need to be okay with "messy brushes", not textured or plain ones, to get points across. Wonder if that might help. Maybe I'll have to experiment.

Anyways. Again, Cad has a more serious reason for this image, and I would not want to betray that by writing it out myself. So if he uploads or comments anywhere, and wishes to explain it, I'll leave that to him. This piece is part of a large series of images for him in exchange for this computer he provided me, since he's got a heart as big as his Mewtwo character can be.

Thank you, Cad, as well as all of you for your continued support. I truly appreciate it. I hope you all are staying safe out there. Please be careful!