The Gun Show (Hi Res + Extra Thoughts)

This is the hi res (3600 px)! Thank you so much for your continued support!

A character detailing for DraenethDragon of Twitter of his turian, Kalnis, in casual wear. He knows the elusive art of triple-wielding -- one heavy pistol, and two giant arms. Whomever this merc is after when he's on the job better start running now...!

TURIANS! :D After I drew my guy, Revvis, in a quick sketch, Drae asked if I could draw his guy as well. So, since we have some bills and things that have dropped in our laps due very shortly, I figured sure, why not! Finished throwing together my new price sheet to a viewable state, tossed it at him, and we decided it was time to paint a BIG turian.

I'm very happy with this anatomy. These sizes are difficult for me to conceptualize and be... happy with? I guess? I always double-guess and start re-sizing things, pulling them back towards reality, so the fact Kal here is so bulky makes me happy. Means I'm making progress. There are some bits I... Hope no one notices from too closely looking, but I am working on it, aha! All in all, though? This was an absolute joy to paint. One of my top two alien races from media, at a size that makes me sweat. I couldn't be more pleased. c:

Thank you for trusting me with Kalnis and letting me work with you, Draeneth!! And I hope everyone enjoys. c:

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BIG TURIAN. BIIIIIG TURI-- ahem. I have drawn an above average sized alien from one of my favorite games. I am enamored...

This one was a sort of rush job, to be honest. We've been slapped with bills and things with strict time limits, so rather than study and prepare for the next opening, I'm trying to help my husband Goolashe out by taking work now. It's been a bit stressful, just knowing how much is on our plate, but we should be okay. I just gotta put my nose to the grindstone for a bit!

Which is something I'm not always good at. Depression and anxiety are still a daily problem. Lots of worries over being good enough, if anything is worth it, struggling to get out of bed. So some days I can work 8+ hours, which feels great, but then the next I collapse and work only a handful. It sucks, not having the consistency. I can feel it sort of coming back how it used to be years ago, though. I think the new price sheet will help -- not because of the price, but because I'm switching to flat pricing, and delegating things of this size to need additional payment.

I've had a person or three ask, essentially, "Are you still open for fantasy work, or are you a NSFW / "hyper muscle" artist now?" Which kind of stings, I won't lie, but I tell them I am still open for normal work! I just want to try and rein things in a bit. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE knowing I'm getting better at working at these sizes, but I think I'm still very cognizant and scared of my public appearance. Especially when people I respect, such as one of my favorite artists, follows me on a platform. Even though I'm at peace with not being in an industry now, it still pulls me right back to that fear.

So... Yeah! I mean, I say all this and it sounds like a lot on my mind, perhaps, but I'm doing okay. Much, MUCH better than I have been in the past. These extra thoughts are maybe not as interesting as others, as I'm sort of... content. I'm just existing. Nothing's going wrong, but things could always be better. I just want to stress again, thank you all so much for your continued support. Not only myself, but Goolashe too!, wouldn't be able to do this without your assistance. Even though Goolashe doesn't produce much art, please know we appreciate this support, no matter how big or small. It's helping us get through some hurdles that would be more difficult otherwise. <3 I really, really cannot thank you all enough.

As a bonus! Because you are in the $5 tier, dear reader, I want to drop a link to my price sheet (still a bit messy, needs some polish before full release). I know a lot of people here in this tier are interested in getting work from me, so. I want to give everyone here a heads-up about the change away from hourly rate work and get you a ballpark of what to expect from flat prices. These may change slightly, but not by any crazy amount.

Okay, enough rambling! I got stuff to clean and things to cook, as well as a sketch stream to get ready for tomorrow. You all stay safe out there. If you haven't yet, please look into vaccinations in your area, and book yours when possible. Stay safe in the mean time, keep wearing masks even if you're vaccinated (that delta variant seems dangerous to me!), and keep being awesome to one another. I will catch you guys again soon!

Price sheet bonus: https://bit.ly/DeriazPRICE072021