Jack Torrance

The Infamous John and Jan Part III

Added 2022-05-30 19:43:14 +0000 UTC

I don't like how this came out. I don't like how a of my stuff has been coming out lately. I am going to take June off to get myself together and reinvigorate the creative juices. Yesterday I wrote a pretty emotionally charged and embarrassing post regarding this that you can read below. I'm OK. I just need to step away for a while. You can read more about that here: https://www.patreon.com/posts/67133817

You won't be charged for June if you choose to stay a member of this page.

Original tantrum post:

Lately it's felt as if I've forgotten how to write entirely. I hate everything I do. None of it feels natural. It reads like a robot read all my work and then created some stupid fucking algorithm or whatever and this is what it vomited back up. A cold description of events, alphabet soup. All of the things that make my writing mine are gone and the prose is awkward, forced. It's a paint by numbers, uninspired, choppy, mess that I don't wanna even put my name on. I hate it. It sucks. And I can't tell you how much that irritates me. I look at this like the literary equivalent of banging in sick. It happens to everyone but it doesn't make me any less frustrated when it happens to me.

I might just pull the fuckin' plug on the whole page for the next 30 days if my brain isn't gonna cooperate and I'm just gonna be a self-pitying, lazy, mope for a while.

I'm going back to bed. I have 24 hours to sleep on it. I'm sorry guys. I've just been a miserable cocksucker lately.