Let's Start Here!

Hello! 🌱

Thank you so much for your support and welcome to my Patreon! ✨ The rewards for all the tiers for August are mostly up. I am working on a dedicated post for the brushes I use and how exactly I use them, so expect that soon. Also, I am giving away 10 bonus PSDs 📂 from my PleinAirpril series 2024 and 2025 for all tiers as a promo for my Patreon so stay tuned for that as well!

Now let me talk a bit about my relationship with art.

Firstly, Patreon is something I had been dreaming of doing since I was in 11th grade. I remember watching Rossdraws and dreaming of becoming a concept artist. Almost a decade later, I am at it and I am doing what I love.

Growing up I have had a lot of self-doubt and imposter syndrome, and to cope with it I developed a sort of perfectionist mindset. You would think this is good, but honestly it killed my creativity. I was not taking risks, I was not learning, and I even started despising art. I was afraid to even start. I used to get so sad when I didn't get things right in the first go. Haha like even with this Patreon post, I am thinking - "Damn, this should've been the first post. FML.".

I found the only way out of this is to stop using social media as much, to stop looking at other godly artists' art for a while, and most importantly - to keep drawing, and accept that sometimes, it will be "shitty."

PleinAirpril 2024 came along and I decided to take part in it. I didn't post my work at first, assuming it was bad and no one would want to see it. So I'd shyly put it up on my story and throw away the phone. But, surprise surprise - people loved it. A few of my friends urged me to post my work. And people loved it and shared it and were even happy they discovered my art.

People were so kind. 💛 They told me their feelings about my art - that it moved them, that it reminded them of their childhood. I would screenshot such messages and save them to remind myself that my art deserves to be seen, even if I think it doesn't. I was humbled and grateful.

"You are your own worst critic." That’s very true for me. So I have been working on it - sketching bad drawings, painting imperfect pictures, making WIPs and leaving them unfinished - but most importantly, I am loving art again.

None of your paintings you think are the “worst thing ever made” are actually that bad. They are amazing. They are a little part of a small artist trying to express themselves. Every huge artist you and I admire started from a humble beginning. They all were at the exact place I am today. And they always chose to do what they love. They chose art.

Despite it all, they chose to make more mistakes. There’s something inspiring in that. That is the spirit of this Patreon for me - I will make mistakes, I will learn, I will try new things, fail again, and hence become a better artist. And I will share them with you in hopes that we will all fail and choose to do art over and over again.

And to start, let me share my very first digital painting I ever made using an Intuos. I hated it at the time. It may not be the prettiest thing, but little me tried his best. And I am proud of him for choosing art despite hating what he drew:

Despite all the negative thoughts, your art has always been worth it, and it deserves to be seen. Your mistakes and shortcomings only make you a better artist. Let’s be better together! 🌿

This is my first time doing Patreon, so please let me know if you have any feedback on how I can improve. Hope you gain some value from the things I have to show and talk about!

Happy creating and see you all soon!