asurocks

Christmas Miracle

Added 2018-12-20 11:46:08 +0000 UTC

This artist is not dead!

First of all the good news: There will be a Christmas postcard!! And EVERYONE of my Patrons of the post months can have one, no matter the reward tier! Just send me a message with your address (if I don't have it already). I just want to thank you for supporting me. ♥

Slightly bad news: The postcards will most probably not arrive in time for Christmas because of printing issues. Boooo!

And now for the reason why I disappeared for so long, this thing:

Throughout this whole year I have been struggling with some sort of "artistic depression" and the last months it has completely taken over me and my life. It's a voice in my head that never shuts up. And because it's also a smart fucker, it manages to find proof for it's claims in the tiniest details and memories. "Oh, remember that one celebrated artist telling you that you should learn 3D, because your 2D skills are not good enough? And remember the person who said drawing sexy girls is a cheap way to get attention? And of course, do you remember all the established comic artists and university professors telling you manga style is worthless trash when you have been so proud of the books you drew? By the way, have you noticed that other artists work for cool movies while you are helping make FREE TO PLAY MOBILE GAMES?" ... and no amounts of positive feedback seem to be able to counter those "facts".

It does not really help that I know I am a lucky bitch being able to make a living by being an artist and I should just be happy and not cry all the time. But still this is exactly what I have been doing there past months. That's why I kinda "quit" social media all together. I don't want to be constantly writing emo posts, because I am getting annoyed by them myself (here's another one, I know). I feel like people expect me to post art, but I can't. And looking at other people's art also makes me cry because I'm jealous of them being able to do art. (I watched "Spider-Man: Into the Spider Verse" which has been fucking amazing - go watch it even if you are not into Spiderman - and just hours later ended up crying while staring at the illustration I needed to finish, fun times!)

Anyways, enough of that. I am trying my best to draw more and not listen to the voice. It will get better eventually. I just wanted to let you know what has been going on. And again, thank you so much for sticking with me, looking at my drawings and giving me reasons to tell the fucking voice that it's wrong. ♥♥♥

Last thing for today: I will make some changes to my Patreon until the end of this year. Most importantly I will remove all reward tiers and make it a "pay what you want" model. This way you can choose freely how much money you would like to support me with and I don't feel pressure to deliver high amounts of content for all the reward tiers. There will still be postcards, because I really like sending them out, but they will be more of an occasional surprise. And I will try to share as much work in progress and .psd files as possible (I will share the making-of and .psd of this postcard in the next days). And of course there will still be BOOBS. Because, honestly, fuck that person who said drawing naked girls is "cheap"! I think sexuality is an important part of the human existence and there is nothing bad or cheap in enjoying it (as long as it is not hurting anyone, of course). Especially in today's times when lawmakers and powerful online platforms are trying their best to erase sex from the the public internet completely I feel like a rebel with a cause when I draw sexy art.

Speaking of sexy stuff: There will be something interesting to show... SOON. Hope you are excited.

♥ Asu Rocks (not rocking that much currently, but hopefully back to rocking soon)