Sharing is loving?

Hello friends,

Although the words are not coming easily, things need to be said if I want to continue this adventure.

Yesterday, I released the first update since the creation of the Patreon page. 9 minutes later, it had already been posted on the F95 forums , without any mention to the way of supporting it.

As a contributing member of the F95 community for over a year, I expected the patron rewards to be shared at some point ; I even had planned to make more and more of my work public over time. But I never thought it would happen so soon.

At first, I felt angry and I had the juvenile reaction of deleting the link before reposting it. Then, I got sad. Finally, as I wrote back to the sharer and tried to understand his motives, I felt rage invading my mind again. 

For him (and others), I am being "selfish" and "using others work to get money". I don't have the words to describe how it feels to see a hundred plus hours and thousands of lines of codes being considered as using someone else's work. The galleries have been inspired by the work Ndsferrari (the guy who also makes the Sabia's Route walkthrough) did on KoD ; what he did was the masterpiece that got me into modding.

I saw the update being leaked mere minutes after its release as a premeditated act. I took it as a betrayal. Someone, from the community I had given a lot to, had been following me, waiting for the opportunity to stab me in the back. 

I was naive ; I thought my work and my efforts deserved a bit of respect. I was wrong.

On the one hand, the F95 community is full of great people who respect, help and share with each other. On the other, some of its members are of the same impolite, disrespectful, entitled kind one can find all over the internet. I also have a problem with those who don't take the time to search for an answer and expect everything to be handed to them on a plate.

This is one of the reasons for creating this page and making my own community.

I have been open to suggestions and criticisms since the very beginning. Because I'd rather have someone tell me the hard truth face to face than go behind my back. Because I want the quality of my projects to be as high as possible and good ideas can come from anywhere and anyone.

I wanted this Patreon page to grow slowly as I released more mods for the supporters and the non-supporters alike. I was quite surprised when so many of you decided to follow me on this journey. For that, I'm truly thankful.

My plan was to continue this adventure for 3 months before I made a decision concerning the future of my projects and, even though it's gonna harder than I initially thought, I'll stick to it.

I'll share with you what I wanted to do with the TT MOD: The Public version will be released after Christmas for the Supporters of the Future for review. This Public version will be available to everyone in early January when I release the full version to Patrons. Since "Prime access to all the future mods" is something I promised to the Supporters of the Future, there will be a delay for Supporters of the Present and I have not decided how much yet. I'd like to know what you'd consider to be fair.

Right now, all I fell is sadness and anger with disappointment poured on top of it. I'll take a break from modding for a few days and focus on communication. If you don't agree or like something, I expect you to contact me either on F95 or on Patreon, publicly or privately, and I'll be more than happy to explain my decision making and make improvements.

Thank you for reading. A more complete post is available here.